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Thursday, December 30, 2004
12/30/2004 11:07:00 AM

i feel time is ticking so slow..i wanna go back quick to spore..maybe its cos me slacking here...i dunno y..i wanna save the money by not going to private sch..but i do wish sch could start soon..cos if its a public sch...it only starts in feb..then one more mth..i dunno what to do manz...although i have a schedule of drum courses,bball self training and going to gym and exploring Canada...i rather use the month that i'm free in spore...at least i dun feel so foreign..

its the 9th day i'm here...its like if i'm staying 7 mths...it will be like 200 more days..maybe i shouldnt count days and stuff...time will fly by when it comes to schooling..i think all of u should know that..hehez

maybe its cos i've been slacking the whole day...thats y i feel quite bored...today was the first day i stayed home the whole day...using internet...playing webcam with others...then talked to tommy until 5am spore time...dunno y he wanna sleep so late too lar...

then after that totally just slacked loh...watched tomb raider with my bro and benjamin..they borrowed 7 more dvds from the store...i watched one of the two series of tomb raider b4..so i didnt know which i watched b4...so i just watch with them until a point i sat up and said "okay...watch b4 le...bye"...hehe...

but today is just a boring day lar...just got nagged by my mum...i cant stand her nagging sometimes...but its ok i guess...a few more days and i can have relief from her le...hehe...freedom!..not really lar..still must study..but at least i got a few days b4 sch starts(if i go public sch) while she is not around that i can play..hehe..but also dunno play what...cant be independent here...maybe should start studyin the map of my area and then see what is there to do...or else the two boys will be at sch...me will be bored..but i can go to their sch too..pretend to be a student then walk into the bball court for usage..hehe...thats what my bro said if i want to go to an indoor bball court..hehe

today not much things to write abt lehz...maybe i tell u pple abt how i was like when i was young...its like...i tell u u also dun believe i'm that type of person....

i was studying actually in new town pri sch...a boy that quite softspoken de but hardworking then...always stay after sch until 6pm if its morning sch to play hopscotch..hehez...still remember i use my wallet as the hopscotch item then end up lost it...

one thing u dunno was b4 i was pri 4 and a half and went to admiralty sec sch..i was a very soft boy in new town..in the sense that i'm very sensitive,quiet and was easily bullied by others...it was like there was a few times that i got scolded by others using bad words...i was like "huh?...what u saying"...cos i was too toot to know that those were bad words..then always got laughed at when i was blur abt it...

but since young, i already had quite a strong sense of humour..that is i could just use a spectacle box to make pple laugh like crazy...i remember doing so...and one more ting was, i was more likable by the girls in my sch..in the sense that i could make friends with them easily and didnt have to be laughed at...i've always thought girls are nice creatures...but when mature now, guy friends dun need many(even though i got alot of gay partners lar.." but just need at least a few to confide in...u know...its a guy's thing..hehez

pri two...this is a secret i never disclosed to anyone anyhow...but since u(the one reading) is patient enough to be able to read my long long blog entries...i'll tell ya..its like..remember hao gong ming classes in pri sch when they teach u about how to be a gd citizen in spore?...there was this time...a girl lar...used to sit beside me de...then always i teach her maths de...then very patient with her..my maths was always gd until sec two end...hehez...then i guess i was too nice, it came to a point she had a crush on me...but i didnt know lar....

then there was this day, she got shifted away from me...as in change places le loh...then another guy taught her maths instead...i was so fed up..dunno whether is jealousy lar..but i remember i liked another girl then, not her..hehez..immature pri sch crush lar...so shouldnt be jealousy....then teacher ask us to sit on the floor to hear her tell us hao gong ming story..hehez...then me sit loh...suddenly my side view of things, i saw her coming towards me..then i thought "wow, she's going to sit with me"...but ended up she came over...gave me a peck on the cheek then left and sat with the other girls...

thats so daring right?...the teacher's response was only saying in chinese "a..now is gd citizens lesson...i never give u permission to kiss each other right?"...then my whole face red...which doesnt happen anymore..cos too thick skin now le..lolx...rare issue manz..so thats how i lost my first cheek kiss..=X

then in new town i still remember i dunno how to close staple...then push against the part where the staple will come out de...then stapled my thumb..lolx..then bleeding.. as u know me reaction very slow de...then i was like telling the person beside me "hey...look...pain..pain..."..lolx...then pulled the staple out and then use tissue to hold back the blood..hehe

okay..i talk abt one more issue b4 i go to admiralty pri sch....i was very into badminton then...then i kind of went for the "auditions" to get into the team...the two friends i went with both got in...me didnt...even though their skills can be said lousy than me then...just that its very unfair how they choose de lar..its abt luck de...they will look at faces then say..hey u and u..come out and play..show me ur skills...i didnt even get a chance to show them my skills..once i went out...i serve one time...they ask me come back le...so unfair!

i went home crying...can tell that i'm not one that likes failure and one that is determined to do well always de since that time...but i didnt care..here comes to admiralty pri...then i went for auditions when i changed to admiralty pri which is woodlands lar....new town is the one near my church de...then the first audition,coach never come...second time, me sick...then he come..its so unfair..they chose the pple when i didnt even make it to the auditions..i was so fed up...i had an attitude then le...then scolded the captain of the badminton team when he asked me to join....cos i was like always begging him to see my skills...then one fine day, he finally ask me to show...me show liao then tell him "i'm not joining, i'm not going to waste my time in pri sch for ccas..."...cos i already had the love for soccer then le...it was soccer craze...i was one of the players in the sch team..and my class won interclass championship de..cos my class is like the most of the team in the sch team de..hehez...cannot believe i play soccer last time right?..but come evergreen sec...the principal say 'soccer is not allowed..the fields are closed during recess and after sch..cos soccer causes alot of injuries"...but what the heck when they allow rugby?....crazy manz!

in admiralty pri sch,i'll talk abt two particular love stories of mine...not really love lar..just pri sch crushes loh...its like the first one happened when i just got into sch from the transfer...

this girl in class...she's still in my sec sch...same class with her two years in sec sch too...but she's a damn flirt lar...in class when i just came...she would knee on her chair and look to the back where i'm sitting and give me a stare that for a boy like me then "made my cheeks red and look away"...she just kept staring everyday...then there were a few classmates sitting beside me that are very warm to me..something i dun feel in new town..cos everybody is like so proud abt their results..and not helpful at all....i learnt abt what is true care when i come to admiralty..even though alot of malays..but they r real nice pple...in sec one sec two..i even had a malay peer group de...all malay girls lar..hehez...

back to the story,i asked these classmates abt why she keeps staring at me...they told me "she likes u lar...she does that to every guy she likes"...at that point, i couldnt conclude she was a flirt...cos i was too blur a boy to understand such matters...hehe..so u should know how much i've grown...then i was like replying them "no lar...like me?...u must be kidding"...

then during chinese class where all her friends would gather around me...she would like take alot of first moves on me...still remember she volunteered to show me around in sch when teacher asked for a partner to make me feel welcomed in sch...the she brought me around all her friends and introduced me as her boyfriend..i was like "what?"...but haiz...too softspoken to say anyting..esp when so many pple crowd around...as if me is a star like that..she is a runner in the sch...she raced me..lost but used a stupid excuse of "too many pple...very hard to run lar..next time lar k?"...stupid right?...thats the point when me liked running...cos ever since small...during recess in new town...i have my own "catching" grp then everyday will play de...i'm one of the fastest de...or else how can i be the fastest runner in my bball team?..=P but i'll talk abt my running interests in pri sch later...

she liked me for quite awhile..got my tel no. then called me everyday...there was this time she asked me whether want to stead...i didnt remember i rejected her lar..but she told me in sec sch that i was one of the few that did...she said i said something like "stead?..dun wan lar..so many pple know liao...i shy lar..." then put down the phone..lol..

another crush is for three years de...her name is Joycelyn loh...she's very pretty lar...its like one of the sch flowers pple pick loh...knew her in pri four...in the same class and same year with the other girl de...then i got very close to her...she is the ah lian type de...she taught me alot of bad words and how to tattoo myself and stuff.hehez...the year end came for pri four...the year i transferred lar..then she hugged me on the last day..then the next two years...different class le...i liked her for three years until pri six....its like how i woo her is ask friends to pass her loveletters...and pass gifts to my friends that would run into her class and give her...hahaz....

but the bad thing abt these love letters were..they were very mushy lar...the girl that i rejected was also one of them tat gave letters to her for me...on condition that i let her read too loh...then come sec sch..i gave up on loveletters writing...but sometimes teach marcus how to write lar..=X...then the girl i rejected said why did u?u are a pro at it...lol...nayz...got reason de...

this is the story..this girl that i wrote alot of loveletters to..put all the letters in her wallet...she is the rich rich type de...got alot of money...has a bungalow in holland v...then her wallet is branded de...not meaning me going for her money lar..but thats besides the point..she lost her wallet in sch..the administration office got it..opened it and tried to look for identification..then found my loveletters..came my class, asked me out...went her class ask her out...then ask me "do u know this girl?"..i was staring at her face to face then...so i faced down and said "ya"...then they took me to the office like a prisoner..the stupid "police teacher"(actually is also a police lar)..scold me for writing love letters..scold me for two hours lehz..i had already started tearing..cos i was soft remember and whats the wrong in writing love letters..liking the opp sex is natural ma...then principal came in...scolded him and took me into the office and consoled me and said everything i wanted to hear like "its natural...that stupid teacher dunno scold what scold de"...lol..my godsisters in the class(i mean they became godsisters to me when go evergreen sec) consoled me back in class..hehez...cos they knew there was something wrong...and my face was black

running was what i loved in pri sch...but the auditions came for sports day..tis was what made me have a phobia ever since that forbidded me to join sports day again..during the auditions..i was first by alot...i won the other guys by almost like 5m away..then suddenly my shoe fly out...idiot right?!!...the teacher didnt give me another chance to run...haiz...it was so embarassing...so many pple looking..pple that know me cheer me on..but when the shoe flying event come, they gave me the lookaway and it made me feel so disappointed...haiz...but at least this skill has never been taken from me until sec three ba...cos i slacked on running and every morning run..i would slowly take two rounds instead of three...bluffing my way thru lar...lazy ma...but since bball training is almost daily recently..i think i have to get back my physical...

that was how i was in pri sch..i would argue with soccer friends until i start tearing de... i was so sensitive that everytime me argue i felt it was against what i wanted to do...cos ever since young, i dun find a purpose for arguing and debating and stuff...and to forever...i'll still think everyone has their own opinions..no one's opinion is stupid and no one's opinion is more correct...they are just all unique loh...

k lar..i let u all rest ur eyes le...long story manz...u all take care..i pen off le..

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