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Sunday, January 02, 2005
1/02/2005 07:56:00 AM

Hi again everyone...countdown was just over...how i spent countdown?..very pitiful lar...but kind of entertain myself loh...tell u how i spent countdown this year lar...but i'll show a contrast on how i usually spend it...

last year was like so fun...i organised a kind of sleepover countdown party..erm, actually not organised lar..it was tommy and marcus's bday party that was used for the party...but christmas was i plan de..sleepover at joycelyn's house...it was fun lar...we went to 7 eleven in the middle of the night and its the time i just got to know sino and yuan chun..at that time still very close with them..but now, is like dunno why parted ways as brothers in Christ le...

but the bad thing abt that were there were alot of cases in which pple got very moody and very sianz...dun wanna cooperate with me to have fun...so it was not so fun after all...in the sense that it could have been even more fun loh...this year's i think would be great..as my grp in church is bigger le...but i guess they had alot of fun lar..with or without me...i'm glad i heard they did..i was quite worried abt the planning of how they going to spend it...but whoever did...great job manz..

how i spent christmas here was already said in one of my past entries...countdown yesterday night...was like so sianz...called marcus they all, they just finished their countdown thingy...my area is later cos 13 hours back ma...then called a few others in spore...then said happy new year and stuff...but it was real stupid...like forcing pple to say happy new year to me...but i guess, thats how i entertained myself...

i watched "daredevil' dvd with benjamin...i pulled him to my room to watch it with me...wanted to watch one more after that..but he said he was tired..obvious lie when he was still awake three hours later..-_-"

then halfway thru the show, the clock struck twelve then i was like "hey ben...happy new year"..then we give the very fake enthusiasm then shake hands..then said happy new year to my mum...who was sitll unpacking and tidying up the house..as usual...that was how sianz i was loh..but no worries...i'm still optimistic and it was kind of gd...i had my own time with God b4 i slept then wished him happy new year...aiya...enough of elaboration how boring my new year was lar....

dun even know what resolutions i have..i think the biggest one is abt my christian life to grow well even though half the year i will spend here in Canada...and another resolution is to convince my parents abt wanting to pursue music and not going to university...which will be very hard to do...

the answer to where i'm studying is still not confirmed..but i do hope i can get to the public sch..where i can pursue music and have courses outside sch...i'll be so glad to do so..but looking on the bright side if i enter private instead is only that i'll be returning to spore quicker loh...but i guess i dun care...i'll just leave the decision to God...if God brought me to this situation...i believe He will guide me thru it...;)

its been the 12th day le..things arent going so bad anyways, settled down in the condominium..cant wait for the gym to open again here..cos they take breaks during new year and festivals...so lazy right?..even shopping malls close down when its christmas and new year and stuff..i'm wondering if pple dun go to a party or have not much friends, how boring their day will be loh....

i just came back from outside b4 starting updating my blog....in the afternoon tried very hard to find music for my blog...at last got le..hehez..but cant find 25 mins..i want that song..haiz...

i just came back from actually going to my old house area to return the dvds we borrowed..but stupidly, the bus services also end early on new year day..so lame right?...then walked to the nearby store that rent dvds...they needed a proof of where we were staying b4 we can borrow dvds...sianz manz..my bro didnt bring..i wanted to borrow child's play dvds..hehez...i never see the first sequel of it b4...i like the show..it sommehow makes me thrilled loh..since i've gotten over the childhood fear of him...i've found it a delight to watch the show..i love horror movies..but sometimes it spoils my subconscious...thats y my bro and mum always use it as a reason why i sleepwalk last time in sec two and early sec three...and why i wake up shouting in the night and cant get out of my dream and just run around the house like an idiot...

since i've come to this point..let me tell u some experiences of such stuff...

i will tell u three specific ones...i will start with the most common one of my sec two de...

this happened to me right after my confirmation..they say that Satan loves to go and disturb christians that are still struggling in faith and still growing to be leaders...

i used to sleep sometimes with specs on...or forgot to pray or just on a sofa when i cant take the tiredness anymore...then i will have dreams like u know how jackpots are spinned?..the pictures...they are replaced with words in my dreams...they will just keep spinning..and its like the devil is asking me to play a game with him...to find my name to retain my body,its senses and control over it...it sounds so stupid right?...but its true...every word of this...i'm not joking k?

thats one of the examples...the rest i cant really remember..but at that time...the game is like impossible to win de..cos my name and its alphabets cannot be found de...its like impossible to win..i felt i couldnt wake from the dream..so i ran to my mum's room..then i shouted help..she said the lord prayer and then in the dream..it was like the grip on my body by him was loosening and loosening everytime a sentence of the lord prayer was said...the lord prayer was too long...its like only till Amen then i felt peace again...and woke from the dream...

i dunno whether many of u have experienced such things b4..but if u do, just remember to shout jesus christ...and keep on repeating it...cos the devil is afraid of God...and showing ur faith in that...he will scatter...

another experience was in sch...i have evidence....i dun just say these things..but u can ask my bandmates...mother or for the later experience, priscilla or my cousins in malaysia...

in sch, band camp was on...it was an overnight thingy..i was very popular with malay girls then..so i always hanged out with them..at 2am of the night..it was a friday night...we sat by the sch flag pole..while they thought me malay..they scolded me in malay..making fun of the fact that i didnt know what they were saying..i scolded the girl that scolded me..pontianak..cos that was the only word i know...everytime i scolded that word..she was like...stop saying that...cos it was friday night and malay superstition is that on friday or weekends..after 12am..u cant say that word..or the spirit will come after u..for making fun of it..

i was those type of person that didnt believe in such stuff..always scold my mum..dun superstitious lar...and i believed that only if u believe there are things like ghost, there are..but if u believe in God...nothing else matters...but it was true that even if u were a very strong christian..it doesnt mean u can make fun of superstitions...

i told the girls "aiya...its okay de lar...dun think so much"...then we started giggling and continue with the malay learning...

then later in the night abt 3am..i was tired...so i went to the band room where only committee members were...i was drum major in sec one..and i am quite known by the whole band..so nobody would chase me out de...so i just slept there and go de siao the rest that are sleeping..=X

once i slept...it was like i was so soundly asleep..there were a few of my godsisters that asked me go out and play..they shouted to the third floor where the band room was...then pple were sent in to call me up..but they say they shake how badly also cant wake me up....i just continued sleeping..

then once they left the room..they saw me suddenly sit up...like what my friends who were that at that moment..they described it as the way undertaker sits up from his "dead" position...then i started rubbing my eyes and crying with the sound of a girl's...then walked around trying to hug someone...the girls were like so afraid..they ran away...the guys...one of my close friends since pri 4...he let me hug him..then "took" me back to the bunks at second floor...

i just walked by myself...with eyes closed...then the staircase was the spiral type..they wanted to guide me..but i refused and walked by myself...closed eyes, i just walked down the staircase by myself...then once i reach the classes where the "bunks"(made with combined tables) were...i started crying again..all this while, it wasnt me..i felt like "God"..in the sense that i was watching down..like a spirit...at me walking and crying..i was like teling myself "is this a dream?"...they put me on the desk on the boy bunks...then left me there..

in the morning..i woke up sitting on a chair at the side of the room...the scariest thing is that i always thought everything was just a dream..but later pple were like "u okay anot?..u yesterday like siao sia.."...the malay guy in my percussion session said....and another scariest thing was "how did i end up here?"...thats the story and the reason why i went church and cried during BS...that was in sec two...when my grp was with evelyn they all de...evelyn remembers..peng soon led then asked me "any prayer requests?"....i was silent thru out the bs...totally dun wish to say anything or shake my head at every question...

thats how my sleepwalking began...if u wanna hear more..request in my blog k?...i mean abt my sleepwalking de..and weird dreams...alot i tell u...it freaked me out until got some nights i dun even dare to sleep...

third experience was in bangkok thailand..went with pris and the whole lee family including relatives in malaysia de....my father's side de..all malaysian de...we went there...i fast forward lar...they said the place is very "dirty" de...so they prayed b4 booking into the hotels...cos alot of prostitutes use these hotels..then very weird weird stuff pple there worshipped and stuff...

i was sleeping on the couch in my hotel room..with my bro on the bed...and nicholas,one of my cousins(marcus,the one u've known..not long ago only)..we were all sleeping when i felt the dreams coming again...everytime this happens..i cant get up from my sleep de...i shouted my bro's name...but he was like so soundly asleep....he just moved alittle then started sleeping again..i was so fed up...then i shook nicholas..he woke then say "why cliff?"...then i give him the very fed up face and frightened look...then ran out of the room...all the way down the corridor to my mum's room...knocked like an insane person on the door..they took quite awhile to wake up and open the door..then i hugged my dad...then they slowly consoled me and woke me from the dream with prayers again...it was so scary...

i dun remember how the dream was like...but i think pris does...she has a gd memory of everything of last time de...i told her the whole experience later that day...pris..i miss ya;)

but i'm so immune to such stuff..after all these experiences were gone...me quite immune to how scary movies are abt le....so i can like console pple in horror movies after this...last time was like cant even handle the movie myself...but recently, i getting little cowardly too...yuqian,mavis,pris...remember? doll master..i was like freaked out..it really depends on who u go to horror movies with too...cos they can influence u to be scared too..like going with my schmates in sch liqiang,guixiang they all...totally not scary...become a lame show le...cos they dun have reaction to scary movies de..li qiang still can sleep..very inhuman sia...wish could be like them...

my recent nightmare was abt child's play..not very recent lar..two mths ago i think...he came into my dreams...he filled my room with his type of dolls..i was like so evil in the dream too..cos i remembered that this kind of person cannot show mercy..must be as ruthless as he is to win him...i used to lose him in dreams...always die in the end or get chased after by him...but the recent one was like i snatched his knife and kill him before he did...burnt all the dolls and threw them out of the window of my room....crazy right?

i hereby state that everything i've said in this blog entry is true...i'm not making up the story just be cos my new year in CAnada is boring..but truly, these are what happened to me b4...want more ghost stories?..hehe..i can tell u...pris, u should know most of them de...

with pple as evidence...i hereby state that none of this is crap matter to make my blog entry longer or be cos i've nothing to write...take care everyone...wonder whether i'll be here during halloween this year..lol...=X pen off...

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