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Friday, January 07, 2005
1/07/2005 09:39:00 AM

hi everyone...i've come to a point i decide i rather just keep silent abt my music dreams for now...my parents are still disagreeing..i can tell...but as long as they know it...at least they wont get a shock when i start pursuing it next time after NS....my father is like just called and said "if drums is a hobby for now..still okay lar"...maybe he agrees to me going to drums next time..but hearing what he said later "but drums if u want to major..dun need lar..."...i just kept quiet...too tired to argue abt it now with him..

today went sch...at last got to take the entire bus journey myself...so proud of myself that i got to be able to find my way around....hehez..so fun..today sch was at 2pm...reached at 1:30...then the canteen already close liao..so sad...but i saw my friend's mum there then she took some bread from the hostel room for me...just some croissants...felt like a poor person...eat bread for lunch..lol..=x

sometimes i feel life is full of decisions..esp when u come to a place that u have to be independent..its fun learning how to mature into a young adult and being decisive..but its not fun when u get caught in the middle and totally dunno what choice to make...and either choice, if u do it wrongly...ur parents scold u that u dunno how to think...

i applied for the NAzareth course today..mainly cos everyone was doing it..and the teacher said until like it was stupid not to loh...cos its very beneficial...thats mean that proficiency test already got me my A levels...and i finish A levels and one year of university in 6 mths..cool right?..but i guess its just not for someone that has to go back to NS like me...and its too much to pay for three thousand more dollars...and its not for me in the sense that i may not continue university here and may pursue music...i've confidence in doing well for the exams lar...but whats the use when u may not even go to university eventually..and u study so hard..thats my point of view...

my parents is thinking abt the money...maybe its really too costly,pple stay in the sch..its cheaper..i still have a rent outside...every month 800 dollars..haven add other expenses...its natural that they think its too much to spend when i already paid like 9000 dollars and they want 3000 dollars more...i dun think my dad can fork that money...we arent rich manz...those that come from singapore arent too...but as i said..they live in the sch while the rest...if they can like come from indonesia or china to here....they sure rich de loh...cos the currency exchange is so much loh...

i got to know another china girl and a girl from india...they were sitting right next to me when we applied for the course...the china girl was cute...talked to her like thirty mins b4 i totally knew she could speak mandarin and english too...so i could just like mix those languages to talk to her..its much easier for a bilingual person like me...as if u dunno, i talk chinese to pple in sch while english in church...english to my whole family except chinese to my mum...she was like telling me in chinese "my dad is going to kill me loh...3000 more dollars lehz"..then i already know she's in the same type of situation like me...i hope she chose not to go into the course in the end...cos i dun wanna lose that friend...while the girl from india...i just talked to her casually...so its okay if i lose her as a friend...not very important also...couldnt click very well..just like talking abt cultures and general stuff...

i was like across the table from the singaporeans i knew at the beginning..marc went to grade 11...while i'm in grade 12 with these pple...so i didnt really talk to them...as they quite dao de...the girls are like just stare at me but talk just a few lines only...actually i didnt even bother talking to them..it wasnt fun coming all the way from singapore and talking to ur own type loh..it wont let me grow much..hehez..

the china girl name was Hong kio...hehez...i had a hard time pronouncing it..heng she told me her christian name is Esther...im glad she knew perfect english or else i'll have problem talking to her...cos chinese, using a mixture of english is what i do usually..my chinese vocab not that much...so dunno how to describe things...but slowly treated her like my friend then we talked easily...like stuff like "haven u eat lunch?...wa...i'm so hungry..."..

i totally just gave the singaporeans a cold shoulder...totally cos they didnt seem to want to include me in the grp...i dun mean the girls..i mean the guy called liu yun..i dunno whats his problem...socialise with me so fakely..i felt insulted...so i kind of talked to everyone else and gave them the concept of "i dun need u all to rely on for accompanyment"...:P "i'm strong enough to live without u...strong enough to live without u...oh..strong enough..oh strong enough.."..=X

k lar...cut the crap ba...at the end of the long long application fill..it was like 2 hrs...finally finish then me left...walked around abit..finding teachers, asking abt stuff...i walked past the gym on the way to the toilet...the gyms here mean "indoor basketball court"...the "Real" gyms are called fitness gyms or something...then i went to the front desk to ask the guy there when its usually open..cos i saw korean pple playing inside...then i thought...maybe i should bring my ball and play after sch next time...hehez...i wanted to ask them but remembered how cold the guys can be towards a singaporean like me...korean guys are freaks manz...faggots..

my mum called the sch and asked alot..then told them that i wan the AP program instead...i think maybe she didnt understand the fact that the literacy test is needed by the MOE here for entry into university..but i think maybe she accepts that i may not go university here...or maybe if i really do(nayz..never)...i will go for the literacy test to qualify for university first...

i felt very honoured to be chosen as the top 12...with all the other smart pple...maybe i'm number 12th..lol...but so what..i'm top 12...woohoo.=X..lol...but i guess the couse is just not for me...there were a few more added ones cos they opt for it..and some idiots didnt come for the first meeting...how stupid can they be...they dunno what they missing out on loh...i saw the korean guy that told me "where's spore" in a class today liao..with the rest that were not chosen...he was chosen loh...just that he gave up trying to go for the meeting as he didnt bother to find out where the conference room is...where's his initiative manz...bai chi..

k lar...i seem like me insulting alot of koreans..lol...but i cant stand how arrogant their looks are loh...they are like chinese but arrogant ones loh...the way they speak..the way they behave..so sick of them loh....i like china pple...very friendly and simple minded de....the china girls were nice...humble cos they dun speak english very well...they know how to write..but as there arent pple to speak proper english with in China..they rarely speak the language....so its quite cute seeing them try...so u see..u cant say i come here to see ang moh girls...its more like china girls loh...and i really prefer chinese and asians than westerners loh...not meaning i like any of the girls here lar...but its interesting being friends with them...i always wished i could talk to other races...thats y i used to be so close with the malays in my sch...one even say she wanted to come church..lol..i was like..u sure?..all chinese de lehz....then she was like, but i cant, its against my religion...but she came b4 lar...when me and li qiang had a band practice in the premises of church in sec two...cos we borrowed the church for teacher's day band practice..

hmm...i feel so nice with pple that just talk to u no matter who u r...no daoness and stuff...i do that in spore too..but i get ignored quite often..unless its shop owners..they sure know me de...lol

its gd i'm back in Bronte..the name of "Nazareth" sounds so dark..but the sch is a beaut...there was a picture shown...its those type of schs u see like in harry potter...its ranked no. 2 in its area...so its very gd...but bronte always makes me feel very nice..ever since the orientation...every one there is like so nice..even the principal smiles and gave me a pat on the back today...cos i was like finding abt the gym timings..then the front desk didnt know..so i asked him directly...if that was the principal of evergreen sec...she will be like "cant u see i'm busy?...go and ask the admin office lar..and why is ur shirt untucked?...see me in my office later..then give me the stupid face...

and bronte has quite a lot of activities..i dun wan to like have gone thru the whole orientation but end up studying in another sch in bronte...i liked the english teacher...creative and nice...miss white..lolx...cute name huh?...if i'm an indian..i'll be mr black...cool name..but sorry..quite racist..lol..how abt Darlie tooth paste....=X...ok enough..hope no indian reads this..

hmm..today went to my condo's gym again..i found a better fist protection..there's this type of toilet tissue sitting on the benches at the side of the room..there were these tissue paper..u know those brown colour types?..i thought they would break after just one punch..but actually cos its tighter and stuff...it was better than my towel..that would cause friction to my fist with every blow...i kind of have red blood cells coming out of my last finger after that session...but i guess..its alright...starting its like that de...not used to it..and i kind of aimed at the wrong part with some blows...gotta buy the real cloth for punching soon..or else my hand is going to bleed all over..=X

tml starting sch le...going for AP lessons..instead of normal lessons...as i said b4...every class will add 15 mins..my class is like 8-2:30..so maybe after that..i hang out awhile in sch..then go to the gym...bring my ball..hehez..

heard more stories abt pple having no idea abt drums but having dreams abt being a drummer..and becoming successful de...so like that, i dun feel so pressured that i wont do well...cos i'm determined to do well...and i have great belief that i will...no matter what...with God by my side in this, i believe impossibility will be turned into possibilities...

the indonesian girl Jaz i talked abt yesterday was a real encourager...not forgetting she praised me for being a gentleman and a nice guy...hehez..of course lar=X...she has had opera lessons ever since she was young...didnt dare to tell pple abt her dream in it de...until she met me...cos i straight away tell her that i'm not going to university..going to pursue music as a drummer...she was like telling one of the black guys that talked to me too...tall and very NBA-like kind of guy...she told him "Cliff is gonna be famous...watch out manz"...then the guy was like "really?..whats he gonna be?"...she said "a drummer"...he was like "cool manz"...hahaz...

heard they got talentime night here at bronte..i'll be glad to participate...she once sang b4 in it..hehez...so i hope i see more of her..i saw her today..she like didnt recognise me,i didnt make my hair today...but i walked past her staring at her and asked her "whats up manz...why u seem so down?"...cos she was like not as sociable...at least she would say hi to someone...not forgetting she always using different pickups for different pple...but i didnt have long to talk to her..i was rushing to the meeting...so i only stopped to say a proper hi...

i'll be at sch tml at 8..gotta choose subjects after the first lesson...i dun wan world history manz..i suck at history..hehez...i'll do changes abt that..but have to endure one lesson on it b4 i get to change..cos the office starts at 8..and my first class is at 8...so only after the lesson then can talk to the teachers...i guess the teachers know me le...esp me one of the top 12s...name sure memorised by them le...i called just now and they were like.."cliff?..oh...i know who wants to talk to u..i'll put u on the phone to her"...hehez...hope its a gd impression i give them..but who cares if i get a bad one too?..lol

k lar..i pen off le...slacking too much..tired manz..singapore...take care wor...;)

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