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Monday, January 10, 2005
1/10/2005 03:30:00 AM

20th day...its nearer and nearer to the day that i will come back to creep u all with my looks..hehez...

one advice: if u are not a christian and not open to christianity thoughts..dun read the following to the end..or u will get offended...

i'm wondering abt something...will pple still remember me when i come back..or will they just say "oh cliff's back" then just go on with their lives...when i left,pple were so close to me...now its like, i dun even know whats going on i spore, i miss it so much..but i guess its just where i have to be for now..step of faith..God told me to come and i believe its where He wants me to be for now...

also gd lar..pple take me for granted sometimes..always thinking i'm always there...its time pple stop relying on me...not meaning i'm not trustworthy or not willing to be there for them..but its time they mature and decide for themselves what to do...and stop coming to Cliff and saying "i have a problem..can help me?"...even for simple things like "what should i wear tomorrow?"..hehez...ya marcus?..nayz, he will hardly come here to see my blog...but its okay if i'm talking to myself...

i'll still be here online in the virtual world for u all to contact thru phone,msn,email,friendster,blog...see so many wor..not like u have to put a letter on a pigeon and pray that it gets to me...which 99% wont..lol...

today went to a church..did reflection...they talked alittle abt tsunami in the worship led...it made me quite emotional...esp when so long never go to a church that really touch me le..i mean our church back in spore lar...even hearing chinese music from our service there de...i miss the church...basically the building so much loh...i miss everyday abt it..esp just hanging out with marcus they all and feeling so nice in the church..i emphasise one more point of our church..i love it!!...hehhez

the feeling of being in it, is never the same with other churches..i know God is omnipresent..but cos maybe i grew up in the church..i really like just being there...the feeling is like stronger than being in my own house..esp when God is there...and everyone that loves God is there too..

there was this song called "this is the air i breathe"..i believe most of u christians know it...its a lovely song that talks abt God being ur foundation,being ur shelter,being ur daily bread and every interpretation u can get from the song...but it wasnt so lovely until they talked abt it with reference to tsunami...

i did talk abt a show i watch that talked abt how unfortunate pple in some countries are?..i think God wants me to know wherever i am..i have to pray for everyone everywhere...to the ends of the earth ya?...thats y i love that song...we cant just always think abt ourselves and our country..what abt pple out there?

esp tsunami, i had so many thoughts in my mind....i think i gotta translate them all into words..express them....

its like ever since it happened, i heard many pple having a thought that maybe doom's day is coming..i mean judgment day...and many think what if i die tml?...i haven even found my purpose...i dunno who to look to..now i understand why joanne my sis loves "pple need the lord" that song so much..pple really need the lord...
(non-christians that are reading this..i know everytime i sure talk abt christian stuff de...u gotta understand and respect my thinkings to be able to be my friends..so i know u all wont mind, read on...it may help)

imagine living a life without a purpose, without knowing who made everything around us..not knowing the truth abt everything...like X files saying "the truth is out there"...the pastor was talking abt one of the parablas in the bible just now...its like broadcasting done by a farmer...broadcasting is also a word used by radios and television...meaning everything is broadcasted out...but whether u wanna keep watching or hearing..its up to u...whether u wanna "open ur heart"..."open ur eyes"...look around...there's this verse in the bible that also summarises something like "God's creation is an obvious hint to pple to think who could make such a wonderful universe that even science cant decode?"...so i totally dun agree that pple should live life for the sake of living it...and the answer that pple give of "no, i've not looked around and thought b4"...thats mainly cos u all are running away from reality, u all want to know the truth...but u all just run away from the fact that u all feel lost...dunno what u r living for...

imagine u live in africa, u r dying tml..and no one has even talked abt the truth to u..i know most pple in singapore have been approached and know abt christianity...and they still just reject the truth and dun open their eyes and heart to accept what is believed to be true..and is true...its like changing the channel of a radio station or a tv show and not wanting to see it...how would u feel not knowing where u will go after u die, not knowing who to seek when the world is evil in the sense that war happens,tragedies always happen...no comfort to seek..i know there are alot of counsellors to help u...but who can truly help u directly with ur life?...the maker of u..the one that controls the will of ur life...

pple come to ask the question "what if i die tml?...is it heaven or hell i'm going to?"...many pple just say "aiya..go hell loh...many also gd mah"...but if everyone is jumping off the building...would u do so too?..where's ur own point of view..where's ur own stand?...pple came to see that christians pray for these pple...try to help them..and totally are pple that are not afraid of dying..cos we know if we believe in our God...it will never occur that we have a minute of our life that we dunno where it is leading to..cos God is in control...God's will is ours...we plan our lives..but God determines our step...

ever wondered why the cross is so important to christians?...cos its like Christ is the only one that resurrected and has His tomb empty...who else in history has done that?...somepple take Gold for a god...make an animal out of gold and say that is "niao shen"...i know i'm being very unrespectful of other pple's religion...but i dun mean that..i just mean to think abt it...heard the saying of " money is the root of all evil?"...money itself is not evil..its our survival kit...but christians believe in the verse in bible "men do not live on bread alone, but on every word of the bible"...u may not understand this...but our "daily bread" is strength from God...money can make u do things to betray pple,hate pple,most importantly,Greed...

what else...pple worship pple that enlighten others...notice the word "pple worship pple"???....God is not a person..if so, why cant pple make a living thing?...that has a heart?...why can they only clone?...why cant science determine all truth?...

and some pple worship animals...some worship JEsus too lar..that one i wont judge, cos we dunno catholics or protestants are truly the ones that go to heaven...but abt animals...arent they even more lowly than humans?..humans torture them..and they are like slaves or servants for human..how can they be God?...God is above all...maybe u will think this is another myth...like singapore got fish/lion head animal..maybe really got things stronger than dinosaurs...but no truth abt them..

notice one more thing...i didnt say "sayings" for words from the bible...cos sayings are what many pple say..its not confirmed to be true and everything...but verses from the bible...they are all evidently true..the book with most evidence and pple supporting it is the bible...everything it says is not like horoscope that widens the scope..but it gets very detailed..it predicts..not say predict lar..but totally evidently says of events that will happen..and they did...and these pple that wrote the book...all have same thoughts abt jesus..how can this be possible?...u may think "aiya, they buck up one mah...all also write together the same stuff...make story"...but no, they are all of different generations..no one passed the books around and let pple anyhow write their story to be added in the bible...these were things written by pple in different centuries, different generations..combined together...more abt that..u go and do bible research..i dunno so much..i'm only 17 tis year..=X...excuses...

it just meaning that if u r a non christian, i wont force u to be converted over..but just want u to think of ur life...want u to ask urself "whats my reason of living?"..just to die?...if u are satisfied with that answer...okay..but i wont be if i were u...then u go and find ur meaning...go into science, see whether it answers all ur questions abt life...then go for other religions...then make ur choice...after what i said...

today i just got a sudden urge to share and to "preach" but its cos maybe i feel there isnt much time left..christians out there..tell pple the truth of life...let them know...its not ur responsibility to make them convert..but to let them know..should be ur responsibility and ur concerns...would u want to be with ur friend forever and end up knowing that one of u are going to a different place for eternity?..sure different if ur religion is different lar...

but one more thing, i didnt say go mosque or temple and get everyone to convert into christians hor...religious respect is still needed..i dun wanna hear racial or religious disharmony in spore tml..lol...

dun just think abt pple having no daily bread for eating to survive...but think abt whether they have "daily bread" and the truth that is essentail to survive eternity ya?..i pen off here...but b4 i go...those that are patient to read finish this...a Big thanks..cos i know its full of crap and just my own point of views...and i know many of my non-christian friends also come here..its just a thought for them to think abt...i cant stand to see pple around me,living life blinded frm the truth, living life without hope..without someone to seek(God)...without a purpose and just living it and waiting to die...live to die?...there's a very direct view of life..but there's more to life than just the word and its meaning in the dictionary...a life isnt a life that is wasted at the end and ends in just one last breath..

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