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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
1/11/2005 11:39:00 AM

21st day le wor..hehez...lucky number...but not mine lar..mine is 6 or 7...hehez...but why am i talking abt this..hehez

yesterday was kind of crazy,had the urge to share my christian faith with others...just felt there was a need to...just an urge to feel that its time i do that..and a gd opportunity to do so when i have so many non-christians coming here and wondering why sometimes i devote so much time to church de...they always go "today got church mehz?..i thought u just went on sunday?..." or "ur church everyday de ar?...i thought only on sundays?"...sometimes its truly just going there to be christian friends...sometimes really just helping 24/7 with church activities..k lar, not 24/7 lar..hehez...

but i'm very glad that in my shoutbox,there's evidence that pple were interested in reading it all the way..i thought it was crappy in the sense that not meaning its meaningless,but its totally what my own opinions are...so,thought many wont be interested in reading de..hehez

today went to sch,went to change my subject,world history to economics,heard that these few weeks i can keep on changing my subjects b4 i settle down on the ones i want to,i wonder whats economics abt..it seems abt business...i know it may be hard,but rather do it than do that stupid world history...its so damn boring loh...

i guess i'm too used to just walking off with my food at the canteen without paying..lolx...my friends lar, last time ask me to just leave, thought must pay them back but they just say,aiya,dun need to pay lar...even the mother also say that..lol..then i take it as i dun wan pay loh..

i was like going to the canteen,then this time i didnt get to have friends to pei wo...so its like i was kind of reluctant to go in and sit by myself...but i guess i didnt care,i just went in and remembered i know quite alot of pple le...some pple are like saying "u been here a few days only ar?..why u know so many pple le...u know he is filthy rich?...i've been here so long,i dun even know that"..lolx...

went to get my food...then saw this china guy from my algebra class called "guo yi"...then i asked him where he is sitting..he was sitting with a few other china pple..and the china girl "esther" was there too...wanted to go and talk to them but on the way,it was like i saw more pple i know...Marc and Clara were the singaporeans that made me comfortable among the rest of singaporeans lar...so i sat with them and i talked alot abt everything...mostly school...and found out Clara was a canadian...she was the same as me just that she was born here but i came here at the age of 1...

they asked me to go joggin with them in the night with them...MArc always asks me to join them..but the problem is i dun live in the sch..but Marc countered it by saying that i could live in his room for the night...it was cool...but remembering that i shouldnt get involved too much in stuff...i told them "i'll see abt that"...

i cant believe how occupied i am now..in the sense of how many days i have events...i thought it was going to be a boring stay in Canada..but no,i've realised that i should just treat here as home for now...thursday i have gym nite at church..playing bball..hehez...then after sch,i know more korean guys and hong kong pple that ask me to join them for bball...friday i have fellowship at church at night...it will be until 10:30..sometimes they go for supper lar...so end very late...

not forgetting that saturday is a day where me,my bro and benjamin go out and just have fun..like that day went arcade...it was fun..hehez...having bonding with my bro now loh...i miss him...always thought i never had anymore childhood memories with him...and after everything in Canada,it will be only awhile b4 he marries meiqi...(i already see her as my da sao)..i think i think too much lar...forgot pple nowadays dun get married so fast...

i cant wait to get back to singapore..heyz,gd news...i only go into army in december..not october anymore..if no changes lar...cos october i will be taking my literacy test in spore that will admit me into universities...so cant go into army so fast..yeah,i dun need to botak so fast..lol

and this schedule of events...i haven add my drum course into the picture yet...plus days that i may stay in Marc's room overnight...i hope i can juggle with everything to do my homework too..hehez..

today philosophy class started..its so fun...the homework was like easy...cos start of class lessons only, they wont go so deep yet...cos pple haven confirm which courses to take yet...so the homework was like "define morality and state a life experience in which morality was displayed"...so fun,i love writing my own meaning to things..i wrote the definition as "morality is having the conscience to differentiate between right and wrong responses when in a situation"...and then i wrote abt me last time being late for sch le...running to sch in spore,then saw a lady need help in her heavy loads of plastic bags...had legs with brittle bones,like cannot cope,then i chose helping her then just be late for sch...but it was gd,i didnt get caught,cos the prefects will leave if pple are too late for sch..like 30 mins late or more,they will be gone...so i just sneak in and waited for the following class to be over before rushing in..

they were like saying we will be seeing shows like troy and alexander for understanding of philosophy..pple say philosophy is hard..but i'm just beginning to love it..hehez...esp when they said "truth=God/knowing whats life abt"...

teacher say we have to do projects on philosophers and pple that think alot...pple were like saying 'lee kuan yew" can anot...or "prophet mohammed"...then i raised my hand and said "can i do JEsus?"...pple were like stunned then teacher say "that will be a very big topic"...and added "no one in our sch history has done JEsus b4"..hehez..

the teacher was the one that tested me on oral on the first day, and knew abt my dreams of being a drummer...he was like keep on saying "Cliff,u want to be a drummer right?..."..just keep on referring to me as "that drummer"...but its cool..i was like quite shocked at the starting..cos many teachers know i'm into drums...its quite scary when all the teachers u dun even know,know u and even ur dreams...

i got that in spore too..cos i'm known to be a naughty and stubborn in the sense that i argue my stand abt what i think de...and i treat teachers like my friend,so i dun treat them with authority or feel that they need more respect...but treat them as equals..i say "hi" to them instead of "gd morning"...so the culture in schh here...i can adapt...

one more thing they may know me for is cos i played drums on stage ever since sec one...every chance i got to...not exactly,sec one couldnt,didnt know musicians in evergreen sec yet...so cant expect me to do drum solo..hehez

i'm beginning to cant stand how my mum is here...she is much more naggy here...so much more loh..i cant stand her...i wish she can just return to spore fast...i want my freedom...i need her in spore, not her..not in the sense that she is useless,but she worries too much here..and is much more strict here...she has a problem man...i dun hav homework cos it just started sch and cant revise anything cos everything to do is in homework...the teachers haven even begin to use the textbooks manz...

so the only thing i can do here is either go gym or table tennis or billiard downstairs,use computer,play guitar,use the phone here...now since the tv is okay le...can watch television loh...but she is like everything also thinks me slacking and wasting my time...haiz..so sianz..

life is so different here..i dun really like it here as much as i like singapore..maybe i just feel like its home here...i feel so so far away...from everything, everything i once used to love...i only like it in the sense that i can make pple so easier here..its maybe cos pple in singapore are not so friendly...and most are either shy or dao...i dun even have to make an effort here to socialise with pple and pple can even come talking to me...my name is an advantage..esp when its a one syllables word...so i recommend u all get one syllables names for ur children next time..=X but dun use "Cliff" unless they really as cute and gdlooking lar..=X..kidding..dun vomit:P

pple will just like "yo Cliff,where r u from?"...then the whole singapore story and crap comes into the picture..hahaz...i met this guy called Rocco today..i told him he has a cool name..i like his name..but he was like "what the hell?"...hehez...then i was like "do u play bball?..when?.." just to know when usually pple are there...usually during lunch,but lunch will have alot of pple de..so i prefer to play after my last class at 2:30...cos many got fourth session..mine is three and all on first three periods..so very lucky..hehez

just bought the moulin rouge soundtrack today...so crazy abt the show..its one of the shows that made me love nicole kidman..she's a beaut manz...i love her eyes...hehez...

pple are like telling me "spore is a nice place manz..i wanna go there for holiday soon"...i'm so happy..and always reply "of course it is"..esp when they know my english is gd and know mandarin at the same time..cos many dunno english as gd as we singaporeans do...esp in Asia...they sure got chinese slang de...but i got rid of it le...and sometimes i talk to the chinese use western slang..they dun understand..while if i talk to westerners and use chinese slang..they dun understand either..hehez...its like talking in tamil slang to them..=X...okay enough of the racism..

i miss wearing sleeveless...i miss being hot...i miss being totall just a "singaporean"...hehez...pple take me like a canadian here..cos i got duo citizenship ...hehe...

if i took the nazareth course,now i would still be slacking and playing..cos the course only starts on thursday...but i'm happy with how things are going now lar...just one more thing to let my schedule be reorganised...and thats my drum course...after that, i can just sit back and wait for things to happen..and just study,play hard...hehezs...

k lar, i pen off here..;)..dun forget me ya..hehez

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