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Saturday, January 15, 2005
1/15/2005 02:16:00 PM

hey guys and gurls,i'm back....my hands are okay le...told u just give me a few days..i forced my hands to do stuff like carrying things and play bball...so its okay le...just cant stretch straight lar...cos knuckles still pain..but overall,i'm still okay...no one said i cant play bball...even my closest friend in sch..that rocco...also ask me to just play...lol...so who cares manz?

i'm having a hard time coping with how pple use "Canada" topics which i cant participate in..i went for fellowship just now...they were like talking abt their heights and weight...all in pounds and feet..how to say mine manz?...so sianz loh...i had to take the initiative to change the topic to something i could participate in...like directing their attention that i'm a singaporean..cos this grp i went out with,was pple i didnt hang out with last week(the first time)...usually we will have fellowship then go to this chinese restaurant and eat loh...

kind of taught three pple last week...while this girl called "vivien" was totally into drums today..asked me to sit by her and teach her...she's cute..same age as me and was saying something like "u teach me manz...i'll come everytime u come....u played drums for 4 years?...so i'll play until i'm 20 too then i'll be gd as u"...hehez...she was quite ambitious later cos i told her i learn by myself,so with me as her guide...she will get better...so she was saying something like "okay..i'll be a pro in 4 years.."

i'm just afraid thats what she wants to come church for next time...i hope not,cos i dun wan to take the spotlight of church off God and onto me teaching them drums...still playing with chopsticks today,they were impressed,cos i had more confidence in doing well...esp when there were so many pple surrounding me today...the more pple,the better i do....and guess what?..i'm getting used to the chopsticks..lol..but nayz,i'm getting sticks tml then maybe i'll lend it to Vivien to let her practise "loosening" her wrist...but she promised she will bring it everytime she sees me lar...

i dun really like the pple's thinking on love here...pple get so open minded that they treat love like a dating game...and just say of their dates like objects of experiment...i dun really like it...even though i like how they talk abt sex and stuff very openly...cos i find its human nature,whats there to hide?....

Rocco met his gf two days ago and was like telling me "aiya,love now is just puppy love...it wont last for eternity"...i totally disagreed.he asked me whether i am attached..i said "maybe" to see how he reacted..then he said "not seriously involved right?"...i again said "maybe"..i dun wanna argue with him...

pple say i can turn this blog into compilation of story books..lol...nayz,i dun think so..no one would read manz...its just cos i'm here,away from u all,or else i dun even think this blog would be visited at all...like the saying goes "u dunno what u have until u lose it"...

i had a thinking that i'll make many friends here and have a hard time leaving Canada when i got to...but since i could leave spore,my homeland, without a tear...nayz,its no problem for me...but if its my sis,she will cry everytime she leaves somewhere manz...lol..=X

another thinking is that when i go back..pple will just go "oh,he's back" but i wonder whether pple other than my related cousins will remember me as something important...maybe its just a pessimistic thinking...been quite moody these few days...so many worries...

firstly,today i had a test...i got one question wrong,cos i thought abt the question again then knew i did it wrongly..shit manz...i think i'm giving myself alot of pressure,esp when my parents paid so much for me...i wish they used it for something else...i keep on fearing so much...pple are like taking it so easily...while me is like "oh no,i dunno how to do this part of the question..thats mean i'm going to get bad marks..."...cos i know my parents arent those that go "oh,u tried ur best...its okay"...but those that go "if this is ur best..i believe u could have done even better"...then the nagging abt having drum courses and side events will come up...

ya..yesterday i had bball cca meeting..i joined it...i signed up for a 8-wwek professional training...its 20 bucks...i actually dun wan de...cos its gonna cost even more money...but my mum was like "aiya,so little..go lar"...but to me its like "i've used more than 9000 for coming here to study..maybe even up to 15000...i cant use more manz.even though my drum course is an essential..."

i'm signing up for the drum course in february...not yet...and miss white(the one in charge of the clubs and the one i said was cute) said the band will only be set up in a few weeks time...so i can go for the bball course first...hehez...so gd...she say there will be professional teaching of drums and band too...yeah manz...play hard,study hard...thats my motto for now...

anyways,i'll end off here....in case pple always nag that the entries are too long..i'll keep it short...;)

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