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Wednesday, January 19, 2005
1/19/2005 07:00:00 AM

hmm...today was a...erm..cold,fun,interactive but somewhat normal day....hehe...abt the cold its still like 18 degrees below zero...but the wind was bad in the morning...my ears were not covered...cos i didnt wan to mess up my hair with the hat...so just kept on holding on to my ears with my gloves..hehe...or else i would get frostbite manz...my ears were like so cold....it almost turn ice manz...solid lehz..then quite pain...heng never get frostbite..or my ears cannot move next time le...

guess i gotta go to squareone after sch to get my ear muffs tml...have to tolerate one more day of cold to my ears...anyways,i'm going there to get what i engraved too and also just go there loh...so used to malls in singapore,cant help but must go every week..hehez...

today i woke up at 4am and then studied my economics...cos yesterday bball play too long and very tired...so slept early...couldnt eve concentrate well....so got up early to study instead...cos today got test..the test was reasonably easy...i was like the first to finish...lol...so i had sometime earlier b4 my next class...didnt know what to do...very sianz...so went to take my ball to play at the indoor bbal court...then later Rocco joined me...and trashed two more pple in a 2 on 2 match...

today played with him "American" again...played two rounds...last time lost him rather badly..but today was improvement..i lost him only by one ball...i guess i have to have confidence in my bball skills...or else i cant perform in matches by keep on telling myself that i'm lousier than them...today i tried the concept of "i'm one of the best" and surprisingly..i impress quite alot of pple with my skills..hehez...

during recess,i sat with the singaporeans again...tell u guys something,next time someone ignores u when u socialise with them..dun go and "woo" their attention,just heck care abt them....i did that..and remember the guy i talked abt that turns his back on me when i talk to him?...he had no choice but to talk to me...he doesnt have as much friends as i have..i doubt he even has anyone other than the singaporeans...i was in their "singaporean" grp at the start...but the girls were shy then the guys except Marc looked down on me...cos i told u they all from Raffles institute,ACS,etc...

then now they asked me to join them for recess...but was supposed to sit with others de...but since they offered..i went over...then the girls were like attention all given to me...guess they are tired of these nerds,bookworms and proud guys...they dun even hav a sense of humour...the girls are actually quite nice..from St Nick girls' sch de...

while leaving the sch just now,the girls kind of shouted my name..i was like shock,cos i didnt know a grp of pple will shout my name de loh..esp in a sch i've only been in less than two weeks...then i looked around...they were actually on the second floor,i gave the very blur look,then they all laugh and say "bye"...what could i say man...i just said byez loh....Rocco was like "singaporean girls huh?"..lol

Jaz as usual was using pickup lines to talk to others...me and Rocco walked past her..i said hi and talked to her awhile then Rocco wore his ear muffs he bought yesterday..they were cute...so Jaz straight away went "hey,those are cute"..but Rocco kind of ignored her...maybe he's not so open just to talk to any stranger...hong kong pple ma..Asians usually are more conservative and dao..if u get what i mean...u dun see many pple in singapore going around and just talking to pple they see in maybe an MRt or something?...i do that...when i want to lar..but hard to do so in singapore cos pple give me the "i dunno u,so i'm not talking to u" look...

like my mindset of "everybody is my friend"..hehez..not meaning i'm not Asian lar...but i'm just crazy de lar...feel very the same like JAz...talk to pple and sometimes pple will just ignore me...cos not everyone is open to chats from just any stranger in Singapore..so always get scolded by my friends that me anyhow talk to pple...but whats wrong manz...not like me offended them ma...its their problem that they are not sociable enough...

hahaz..i also got to know more Chinese girls in my class..and when i say Chinese..i really mean CHINESE...from China de...not even hong kong...its totally those type that still learning english de...their cute...i like their chinese slang..so sometimes i have to imitate to make them understand me...lol...cos they always come to me if they dun understand the class and what the teacher is saying in English...cos they know my english is gd and my chinese also gd..and in maths class i score quite gd also...

yay...my class test was out today...my marks arent desirable...i got 11/20...but i gave it back to the teacher cos he marked my hypothesis wrong when it was just not one of the answers he has...he didnt even test it to see whether it works...it totally does manz...i dun hav to do it his way ma...he doesnt even teach me how to do it his way...so its hard learning from someone that tells u "about numbers" when u ask him what the class test is specifically abt...never seen such a teacher loh..i dun like learning from him..he sucks manz...but since i want my marks,i will just have to listen in his class...plus hard work when i come home...correct,got homework to hand up tml...

my philosophy test is on thursday..not tml...so i can totally do my maths homework today then tml concentrate on the test preparation that most likely i'm do it in the same style...wake up early in the morning and study..hehez....but sometimes its bad when it ends up that i doze off in class....when u wake too early..its like that de...esp in winter,just feel like sleeping in bed...feel like hibernating..and whats more?..when u wake,ur bro and benjamin is still playing computer games..u leave,they go back and sleep...sometimes they are still sleeping so soundly when i leave..its so tempting to just jump back into bed and do the same...haiz...why is my schedule fix one..i wish i had night classes or someting...and a schedule that is different everyday...i know its the same time like singapore to wake at 6am(but usually i wake at 7 and reach sch at 715 lar..sometimes sprit to sch..i mean spore) but like i said,the situation is different...:(

my knuckles are alright le..i think i'll go back to training tonight..i believe i have alot of time to finish my maths homework..no problem de...now still have to cook for them...cos my bro has night classes...my turn to cook le...cooking chicken stew and fish..die manz..how am i going to do it..i know i did them for FNN b4..but without the recipe and procedures..i dun remember what the ingredients are...

my mum just called to ask whether i know how to do it...i just dun like to talk to her over the phone..so i just said "its okay,i know i know"....but now i regret...and she calls everyday..i dun see how my bro can stand her manz...maybe the process is that my bro calls her every now and then..but she worries too much abt me,so keeps on calling me...just now play bball then always have to hear her nag...its so sianz loh...was telling her that i hope she just call once a week can le..i wont die if she doesnt call me for one day loh...and even if i do,the hospital will call back to spore de loh..-_-"

i miss everyone in singapore,as i predicted..its harder for me to miss everyone in singapore than everyone in spore miss me...esp when pple take it as if i'm dead le..sometimes lar...cos its like 6 mths..i wonder how many will still remember me when i come back...as i said,i predict pple will just say "oh,Cliff's back" then continue with their lives like nothing happen...yeah,true lar,i'm just a small person in a big world ya?...but i've always wanted to make a difference in everyone's lives...everyone that i come across being even just casual friends with...thats y i love the song "making a difference" cos if u just live like the rest and aint no different from them,how can u be a unique individual with a unique personality?..

k lar..i pen off here,during weekdays i wont type so much de...just keep u guys informed abt my events and stuff if u all interested,if not,just come in weekends..i believe i will say more stuff then....cos quite tired after sch too...esp when u play bball in three layers of shirt,two layers of pants...the problem with that is if i take out more of my clothing and play,i'll be freezing..while if i dun,i'll be sweating inside...heard of cold "sweat"?..the feeling sucks...esp when it dries up and u dun even feel dirty...but ur body is collecting the sweat...and if some pple are lazy,they will just take it as they are still clean when it dries up....

correct,i said pen off ya?...anything to ask,feel free to write in the shoutboxes,flood them as much as u want,but with sensible stuff hor..not rubbish...hehez...and if even better,email me directly...i feel "cared for" everytime someone does that...or even better..call..lol...k lar,i'm just kidding...dun waste ur time manz...;)

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