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Monday, January 24, 2005
1/24/2005 04:27:00 AM

hey b4 i start blogging...i wanna complain,i actually write one very very long one le...supposed to do stuff now de...then i lost everything..have to write all over again..i am so pek chek loh..haiz...:(..and i really mean long loh...cos it was like 3 days summarised loh..

anyways,this is a suggestion...if u guys and gals out there have stuff to ask abt how am i doing here and even questions that u have always been curious abt me,just ask them on the shoutbox k?...the box u see on the left of this page...and pls dun write questions that are in general like "relationships"...specify what u want me to elaborate on..or else u will regret,cos i can go on and on abt something in general de...

this is just a suggestion,if u all dun have anything to ask also its okay...me just thought that everytime i blog,talk abt myself is fine,its fun for me to express my day in a reflection here...but i thought maybe if the topic interests u all...even better loh...i will write the question to be answered in the starting of the entry...so if interested,then just read loh....or else just skip to the part where i'll talk abt my day...i'll entitle them and label them for convenience...;)

k...back to my entry:

hey everyone,its been like three days including today since i've blogged...remember,my blog's time is singapore timing...so if u wanna know when i blogged the entry,then count 13 hours back...i've been rather busy..not with schwork or anything..but just with the schedules i have loh...so been too tired and no time to come online to do stuff like this...but i'll summarise the three days in one entry...so bear with me k?...this is the second time i'm writing this thing...so if i cant waste 2 hours sitting here typing one thing over and over...i hope u guys will read it...i might not elaborate as much as i did just now..but i'll try to cover as much as i remember i wrote just now lar...

lets start with friday...friday was a day that something rather bad happened...but such situations is nothing much to me de lar...so i dun feel like its anything new or am very troubled by it...

its like as usual,i stayed back on friday to play bball....i saw korean pple playing soccer on the other half of the court...then guoyi(my algebra friend and also my closest friend other than Rocco and the singaporeans) was like telling me abt them playing very aggressively and very serious in wanting to win when they play de...so thats the reason he usually doesnt play with them soccer...

i just told him "aiya,i just scared they lose until very miserably only and i've met more rough pple than pple like this loh"....i shouldnt be playing indoor or street soccer cos i'm a field player..i play defensive midfield...the one that clears balls off the attacks of the opposition and crosses for the attackers of my team to score...so i dun kick lightly one...

i remember the last time i played street soccer...was with norman and gang in church english retreat....i hurt abt three of them in 15 mins of play...not by physical,but my kicks lar...so i stopped playing after awhile...but i forgot abt that issue totally this time...

i just told guoyi "if u are not going,i'm going to go and play le"...then he hesitated b4 saying "wait..if u are going to get into trouble..i'll get into it with u"...i was like "the only trouble i might get into is that they are going to lose very badly"...and indeed,thats the main thing that got me into trouble...

i scored like abt 6 goals...the score was like 6-2...then the korean guys on the other team were like "mark this guy mark this guy!"....they dunno english much..but at least they know how to say these kind of stuff..lol...

JAz was in my team..she was the tough girl goalkeeper..lol...i scolded her for playing with guys..then she headlocked me...but i just countered her and turned her around and headlock her instead..she was shocked...she said no one countered her b4 yet...little did she know i learn thai boxing de...lol...

guoyi knows i learn thai boxing cos i countered his punch once and he was totall shocked...but i'm not into the "sport" officially or any association lar...cos the competitions when u lose,u either get severely injured or u might even die if they are not careful with their K.O. hit...so i just learning from someone that used to be a head gangster when he was young and learnt thai boxing b4 from an international boxer....dun ask me who,i am not suppose to say...

there was this guy that i tackled quite a few times...he is like beckham to the rest of the players...but i'm like that de...the better he is....the more i wanna tackle..i remember in pri sch they also were like "u tackled him? u know who he is anot?"...but i am like "who cares?...i just care that i got the ball"....

he was angry the dunno how many time i tackled him..but i didnt realised it...so i snatch his ball and then shot a goal...he ran and charged at me..he is tall,looks tough but he is weak lar...he charged at me..i didnt feel any hurt or anything but i just gave him a strong stare,didnt realise his anger at me...then he said "u watch out manz!"...i replied "watch out for?? u?? haha"....then smiled to myself and looked away...

wanted to continue playing when suddenly he pushed me...a few times was okay i tolerated abt 5 pushes then i pushed him back..he almost lost balance...lol...then he pushed me again...that was the time i almost attacked him when guoyi was just in time to separate us...then he pushed guoyi away...i was already angry and he still pushed my friend...i went to him almost hit him again..then the rest of the footballers all stop us le...

he was pulled out of the gym while many came to calm me down...i'm glad i had many friends at that point...or else everyone would be against me...but i guess many pple hate his temper too....so they were like "he is like that one lar..dun care abt him"...i took quite awhile to calm down...and i thank God that i didnt hit him...or else he would have "won" cos he made me hit him..and usually the one that starts the fight will have worse punishment ma...

b4 he was going out..he shouted at me "u watch out manz!" again...i just replied "just shut up will u?..do u think i even give a damn abt what u are saying?"...when i was leaving the sch later...the song "shut up by simple plan" made a very similar meaning to what i just said...i guess its true,what music u hear,affects ur attitude...i'm hearing alot of punk rock recently...so thats y...but i choose those without vulgarities lar...or else i'll be using them in no time too..

guoyi knew i was very angry at that moment..and that anger was burning in me...so he said "when u leaving the gym,tell me...i will walk u out to the streets...i wanna make sure u dun do anything rash"...

i wonder what will happen when i see that Korean freak again..lol...just got to remind myself i can do anything to make him beat me...but i cant beat him unless its self defense...

i came home,told my bro abt it...and i was like shocked at his stand of self defence, "i didnt ask u to learn self defence ma...even if someone is holding a knife in front of u..maybe its God's will that u die then?..u dun have to defend urself....can u imagine Jesus beating someone up?"...but i answered back "i believe God would want me to defend myself and its not true that u have defend urself"...no where in the bible states that...or else why do pastors' sons also learn self defence?..crap manz..but i convinced my bro abt it later...just that he is the very soft and non-violent type...so he just cant accept that i am more "human",get into fights and stuff de...he is more of the type that goes "u can beat me,my reward is in heaven"...=X

okay...for friday...i did running in the sch campus..lol...cos guoyi walked pass me in recess trying to hit me...i took notice of that..then i walked into class later with an innocent look then went behind him and punched him in the back then he ran towards me...then i ran loh....about like 4 rounds around the sch corridor b4 he finally touched me....cos i braked a little to say something to anger him more..lol

he was like panting like a dog after that...while i felt nothing...then he said "u not tired meh?"..of course not for someone like me that played catching in new town pri sch,sweeper(run all positions) for soccer in admiralty pri sch...and basketballer small forward now...little did he know that i was only jogging...i just replied him " no lar...very tired..."...lol

philosophy class,teacher didnt come...so we were asked to do research in the library..the library was a very lousy one that no one goes to de...so we walked around in it for 30 secs b4 i told the whole class,abt 15 pple only lar "what are we doing here manz?...lets go gym and play bball and badminton lar"...so we ran away from class and go play..lol...so we had gym for "philosophy education"..i mean "PE"...hehe

i had fellowship in the night...we were watching a movie...it was movie night for us that friday...we watched a very lame and funny show called "napoleon dynamite"...i played guitar for singsperation and then we hanged out at the house until 12am b4 leaving...as usual,had a hard time talking to them...cos they again talked abt their sch...this grp that always stays back after fellowship is like they all in the same sch de...while me different sch...so they talk abt pple from their sch as if i know...so i again had to switch the topics to let me be able to relate to too...

got to learn a few moves of karate from a guy in fellowship too...so cool...cos self defence is best when it has a mixture of a few techniques...like i wanna mix tkd,judo,karate and thai boxing together for self defence...i know tkd and karate learners here...while in singapore,got thai boxing and judo friends to learn from..hehez

also taught Vivien(the 16 yr old girl that learnt drum very fast but advised her to learn her pri instrument guitar properly first) proper strumming...cos her chords knowledge is gd...but she cant strum properly...but she is potentially gd at learning lar...so it wasnt hard teaching her...since she is in the christian band next mth for church...might as well teach her some stuff that she may need for being a guitarist...or else i cant play drums..=X

during recess that day at sch...the singaporeans asked me to go out with them on saturday..hehez...they were going to go downtown for chinese restaurant lunch and then go outdoor iceskating on real ice and have Sashimi japanese buffet dinner...i knew it was going to be very costly....but i was intending to go..cos i feel more at ease with a grp that all singaporeans de...so it will be fun...

now i get to saturday....i woke up at 8:30 reached sch at 1000am to meet them...we went to take a bus to the train station then at the train station take a few stops to go to the chinese restaurant for lunch...my bro called me and then told me that our area here in missisauga(the district we stay in and where the sch is in) was having a blizzard snow storm...but heng the area that we were for lunch didnt have it..but was very very cold loh...he was like telling me "if u cant come home tonight,stay out until u can k?"...i just thought to myself "nayz...sure can go home de lar"...but later in the night...

we didnt go iceskating cos of the cold...we went shopping instead..they used so much money,i was kind of pressured when one of the guys used up to 400 dollars on the day itself...but i guess cos he is 21 yrs old and was in NS...sure got bank account and savings ma....

the guys are more of those that talk abt computers,news and general stuff...so sometimes they bore the girls out...Clara and Siqi...they are very nice girls..very friendly and very warm to talk to...it wasnt long b4 i took them like i've known them for mths...

the grp was nice...can talk singlish..talk abt singapore stuff and everything...i felt much at ease hanging out with them...and as i wasnt the oldest like i used to be in most fun grps in singapore..i didnt have any responsibility to lead the grp or anything...it was fun...and they all took care of me...i felt gd...guess i'll hang out with them more often next time...

Clara is borrowing alot of cds from...almost all the ones i brought from singapore and bought here de...cos she likes the same type of music as me..and i'm glad to have found another Michael learns to Rock fan....cos very hard to find pple that love them de..maybe cos not our generation de ba...its more like my bro and my sis generation de...but i'm glad my sis "introduced" them to me...or else i wouldnt even start buying tapes(back then) and get exposed to music and develop my love for it...

she also loves bball...said she going to watch one of the NBA matches that are coming here...but she said she want front seats...which are abt 90 dollars..i already have a drum course to pay for..i wonder whether my mum will allow me to go for this experience..i wanna go with her...i've always longed to watch an NBA live bball game....

the guys usually talk alot abt their knowledge of things de...so i feel quite inferior to them when they tell me all the knowledge they know..i find the girls Siqi and Clara more "human"...more easy to relate to..maybe cos the guys are all smart chaps from top schs...

the girls were like teaching me how to look at girls...and i still thought only guys will make me ogle at girls and stuff...cos we three arent pple that like reading books ma...so the guys were in the bookshop reading while we three just stayed by the magazine stand and look at the pictures of hollywood stars and gossip abt them..=X

the magazines here are so much variety loh...i stopped after awhile ad then went to the sports section and read bball magazines...then clara also was interested...so we looked thru them together loh...but we just look at pictures only...cos we are not ones into such reading abt NBA stuff de lar...

overall,the grp is fun..but so sad that i only can hang out with them for these six mths i'm here...but even if i'm not going back for NS...we also have to separate ways de...cos some going to university in US while some staying in Canada...but i got the girls' msn address...so hope to keep in contact with them...maybe even meet when we go back to singapore in the end of june for holidays...

i used abt like 70 dollars yesterday..i ended up broke loh...heng i got the weekly bus pass...so could still survive...hehe...

the snow was bad later..the wind was so cold after we ate japanese buffet...the wind was like so cold..i know many of u would love to see snow but let me tell u something..dun blame me but i have to say "Winter sux!!"....its so cold loh..that we had to cuddle together while waiting for the bus to come to stay warm....but it was very nice...without each other,i guess it would have been very easy to have got frostbite...

we were deciding whether come to my house for the night or go back to sch....but bronte college is nearer...so i went back and stayed with them too....didnt go home....cos too cold...and tired lar..dun wan to travel so much...

had to sneak pass the front desk while they distract the person there...cos i dun live there,its illegal...then in the morning today is like i had to bluff the front desk that my student card is spoilt and one of the teachers are seeing to it...so cant give the front desk...to leave the sch..

we watched white chicks on saturday night and got "lamely" bored of the show...so we switched to watching episodes of simple life and slept at 4am...

i slept in Mark's room...actually cos Clara's room is double bed... can sleep in her room..but cant possibly sleep with a girl ma...and the rules are that guys cant be on the floors of the girls'...so Siqi's suggestion of her going to Clara's room to sleep while i sleep in her room was very risky..so i didnt want to take it...imagine coming out then the girls of other room saw me...would be so shocked loh...unless i think the crazy thing of wearing a pink jacket and put the hood over my head and walk around..but again,what if they see my facE?...-_-"

i forgot tell u all...CDs here are cheaper in HMV for those bands like "simple plan" and "Sum 41" that originated from Canada...so i just bought a "Sum 41" Cd....thinking of getting the latest "matchbox twenty" CD too..but it was like 26 dollars..maybe i wont buy that at HMV....i will buy it at another shop ba...

today went to church,Mark went with me...i'm glad that i offered help to these friend of mine that has been searching for a church in Canada for so long le...i'm happy in the church here too...adapting well to everything,so fun le...dun wan go back singapore liao..=X...i'm just kidding...

just that now in the church,i feel its like my own le...so i have a belonging there..i take initiatives to talk to pple first now...

there are two worship teams...youth fellowship serving de...so its like maybe i'll play drums for one of them that has a guitarist and pianist..the one i'm officially "recruited" in lar...while the other team maybe i'll be fair and play guitar for them..or else it will be like the singers on the other team will feel like its so boring..that their grp is so inferior,so little pple serving...then me bias...so i'll serve for both loh...even better..i love serving in church...i know i'm still a student and young but i wanna serve as much as possible within my ability for God...He deserves it...

then now i'm back home after church..so tired,wrote this blog entry second time...its like 2 hours typing...so sianz loh...k lar...anything,"shout" to me or in a more civilised manner,email k?...hahaz...crap...-_-"

pen off...take care Singapore..dun forget me..i belong to u...=P

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