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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
2/02/2005 11:13:00 AM

this is the 43 day in Canada...hehez fast right?...since my last entry..hehez

kind of getting so bored with life now,everyday is like its almost the same....i wish someone more would happen...i wish i didnt have to like go thru the same procedure everyday,go to sch,eat lunch,play bball after sch,go home,eat dinner,maybe watch tv or do homework,sleep..then the whole day starts all over again....

these few days i dunno y,but socialising doesnt even seem to be like a part of me loh...i only talk to pple i know..i dunno,but maybe its just one of those days that i get moody loh(oh manz...i sound as if i am a girl=X)...

today went to church for band practice with the team that "recruited" me...it didnt went gd...if i have state frankly...it sucked...sucked life right out of me...i suddenly just felt "huh? this is music?...music sux manz..if this is what is described as music"....i dunno,i just felt that it was the worst band practice i've gone to...i must admit that the band doesnt even have the urge to wanna make gd music...they were like half hearted in the music making...other than maybe raymond and the girl guitarist...at least she has a sense of music...and its just another band that has gd music,but singers like dun dare to sing like that...aiya,not dun dare..i just dun feel the power of music in them...not be cos they are lousy,but the enthusiasm in them...

they sing while sitting on the floor loh...its not wrong but it just gave me the feeling that they like not totally into doing it de loh...then the pianist is like "the song is too hard to play...i tried and gave up"...i understand the "hard" part..but i dun understand the "gave up" part...it was just very discouraging for me in the way i heard it loh....

then next,betty was like telling me "its too loud lar...its hurting my ears"...when i use like 1/100 of my strength le loh...maybe not so little lar...but its really try my best le loh...i feel so self-conscious abt my strokes...i felt i not even playing with feeling le loh...i felt so practically dead and like everything abt my drumming was robotic...like "next,i'm gonna do this...after that,i'm gonna do this"....thats not how i play manz...i play drums,i can play one song...but everytime i play,i do it differently de...

we did "my best friend"..it rocked...just that betty was like "its too loud,its hurting my ears"...i wonder whether she even listens to rock..i'm not even playing rock..i'm like playing pop/contemporary...-_-"...then later i was deprived of drums playing just for her ears...i was very pissed...but i guess cos its like in the basement of the church..enclosed...so it was kind of loud...

i've yet to played drums since last year sept...and now she crashing my party at last when i can do it again...ended up having to play guitar instead..cos the guitarist was like "my fingers hurt...i have to rest awhile"...her "awhile" is until the whole band practice ended...i know i can play both instruments,drums and guitar..but i dread playing guitar..i dun hav the talent in doing so...i only like having fun and totally jamming with it...but no,i'm not the one with the guitar in my hand while jamming....not now,not ever....

i'm like in a mood of even if u tell me a lame joke(the only type of joke i appreciate alot..lolx =X),i'll just say "haha" and brush it off me...

guess its just not the time i should be doing blogging..maybe when i get into a better condition first loh...cya guys another time..byez...tml having drum courses,learning "hoobastank" cd...dunno how many songs he can manage to cover in that 30 mins duration...but i guess it will help me regain my life with drums...he's cool...and drums R Cool...hehez...talking rubbish le..byez

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