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Friday, April 01, 2005
4/01/2005 08:25:00 AM

yoz everyone...i'm back here to update u guys again...this time not abt life...guess was very bored that day...sorry if attitude and "sianz"ness came into the picture with an extreme extent...but i just got back my results today..maybe not totally as ideal as i thought i would do...but i guess i did my very best...and thats all i need to know...right?

hmm...b4 i start telling u guys the results...maybe i should go thru some details about how my study life has been like...

it has been a great struggle for me ever since coming into the sch...struggling with adapting..everyone i know is like staying in the sch...other than maybe Rocco,so started off playing bball with him always....but not staying in sch deprives me of alot of chances to get to know pple...had a tough time socialising with pple...but eventually i kind of opened up myself..and when more pple knew me...there was no prob just going around talking to just anyone..hehez..

abt studies,everything went gd in the beginning..even algebra -_-"...i was like scoring almost full marks for all my tests...and proficiency test even got top 12 loh...i was quite shock...cos i've never been a study freak..and how i was doing in singapore..i knew i was not that gd...but believe it or not,my o levels were surprising well done...compared to my prelims lar...great improvement...my maths that actually got 20 something in prelims...i got a B3 for o levels...quite surprising...cos ever since after PSLE...my A* mark...after that,never did do well in maths le...maybe it comes down to one point...my foundation in algebra was bad...so everything was pulled down by that weakness...but eventually got better...okay..i'm talking out of topic le...lets go back...

later on in the semester...my philosophy teacher was sick...was hospitalised..then all the troubles and struggles came...i couldnt attend philosophy class anymore..cos it clashed with my third period!...the rest of the students all could accommodate to it...but i couldnt...and it was my fav subject manz...=(..i even feel sad now that i couldnt attend it...there was so much of my interest to be met in such a class...totally manz...

then i was dozing off in classes for econs..cos in the morning..the temptation to just doze off...u will not understand if ur class is not by the window that leads to outside...which is so cold and so feel like sleeping manz...and u wont understand if u never even experience winter mornings b4 loh...=X

this caused me to lose alot of details and gd teachings..this teacher is the type that his notes are even better than the textbook itself..so u should know how much i lost out on...but i used the concept of "aiya,go home then revise should be ok liao lar"...but this dozing off was not always...even though my friends that are taking university courses walk past and say i always sleeping on the table...

i didnt wan to sleep de...i never wanted to..i guess the reason why teacher never scold me is be cos i always seem to be trying to keep my eyes open and he knows that i want to listen,but just cant help myself..lol...i love his teaching...but sorry lar...too comfortable not to fall asleep...but after a mth or two...i found that i have to really not sleep anymore...then i got better...and soon didnt just fall asleep for comfort reasons..hehez...i just had to put my mind to it...but the dozing off caused me to lose out alot on exams...cos sometimes u can just read the book and u wont get it de loh....

due to another reason of always oversleeping and missing the class...if u all dunno,i got a letter of warning that if i miss four more classes(a total of eight) then i cannot take the finals exams..so i was scared...so started asking my friend to call me in the morning to wake me up...but i feel like sometimes i waste her calling..cos i end up going back to sleep..so i had a total of 6 classes missed this semester..=X..this is another reason why i miss alot of information to do well in the course...

maybe i could have got 90s if i didnt doze off in class and didnt doze off in class..thats very true...hehez...the tests were like scary...my tests all were like 80 and 90s de...then suddenly last test got only a 60 mark...i was like scared..then started to always bring my econs book to the library and study during my free period in second period...almost 90% of my studies were in econs lar...cos algebra i dun understand anything even if i study..and philosophy is not one that u can just study and do well..its abt ur potential to score also...

then comes algebra...starting did very well..one of the few to pass the test that teacher say that is gd enough if u can even pass it...but later in the semester..even homework cant score..textbook answers all wrong..how the heck u know whether u r getting the question right manz?...-_-" tests starting just pass just passs...then last test i failed 27%..but i got to choose to drop that test...so i dropped it..struggling totally..always asking for help from pple...but on the verge of giving it up le loh..totally dun understand anything in class...teacher ask questions then i only can say "i dunno"...then everyone that knew i was smart in the beginning(only)...all think i'm just acting blur..and when they ask abt my marks for everyth..they keep on like shocked and say i'm bluffing them...idiot manz..maybe i'm too gd at acting smart...but really manz..i dun understand anything in class manz...

okay i'll get straight to my results now...

Philosophy - 80%
teacher was like praising me for even getting an 80%,considering that i never even attended one class after my first teacher was hospitalised..actually it was hard..i dun even know what the teacher is expecting in his answers..and totally i never even heard the teacher's opinions in answering the questions relating to the topics taught in class...all i have is myself..me and my brain...so i'm glad i even did well...considering the fact that i finish the test in 40 mins when i'm given 2hrs and 30mins to finish it...for ur information, i was very sick yesterday..whole body aching,bones feel very pain and had a high fever..saw the doctor...i'm feeling much better now...more rest will do it to recover fully...thats y i finished the test so slow...cos my body was aching..i couldnt sit on a chair properly..even my butt bones..does butt have bones?..=X...they hurt too...hahaz..stupid teacher was like "u had the most marks per second...but u only gave me 75% of what u had...u could have gotten 100% if u stayed longer"...but i was like ...what the heck..of course i wrote everything i had to say...but maybe he means elaboration and crapping more ba...

Economics - 82%
nothing much to say abt this...but i only know my finals examination pulled my overall average of actual 84% down...cos i really was like,had to study all by myself abt everything since i dun get to listen in class much...all due to my laziness..=(

Algebra- 54%
i know u all will go like "what the heck...why so low compared to the rest"...but the truth is, i suck at maths!!...my foundation in maths is bad...this algebra was like totally sucking the life out of me...getting a 54% has already caused a sigh of relief for me..so u should know how bad it is for me...my finals examination only got 44% loh...it was like so hard..and someone actually got 99%...i cant believe it manz....crazy!..dun wanna talk abt this..just know that its okay sincce i passed..cos if i failed...i cant graduate in june unless i take 4 courses next semester...which is totally like "are u crazy?"...

can see some similarity with my mid term results..maybe lower ba..i think mid term if i didnt forget was 78 83 58...so i guess i improved my philosophy..slightly lower econs mark and a drastic drop in algebra....maybe okay lar...4 marks adding to philosophy in exchange for 4 marks subtracting from algebra...i'm glad..=X if i see it that way..lol

anyways,its been a gd experience..but i'm glad its two weeks holidays for me now!...or else i'll die manz...been studying like mad..maybe not totally mugging like how "real" students do...but its crazy for someone like me that never knew what mugging is like to have mugged this semester...i usually study maybe three days b4 the exam...this time is like study two weeks b4 the exam...amazing manz...lol

k lar...i will stop my crap here...any comments abt anything, pls do "shout" in my box...hehez...take care ya?..God bless everyone

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