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Thursday, June 02, 2005
6/02/2005 03:51:00 AM

yoz everyone..wow..its been like more than one month since i've been...shows u how busy i've been since school reopened manz..suckx...this term is like only two mths..everything is so rush compared to the other semesters that are three months...so much homework to do..and thought english would be no kick for someone that comes from singapore...but there are so many freaking books to read.its not like for leisure only manz...but its like for literature..so how can u expect me to read it like in two weeks...200 over pages...with every page to do indepth studying about...with two other courses(subjects) to worry about too...this isnt like singapore...no sstress from teachers...but it is stressful in the sense that everyday has a bunch of homework to do..even when u sleep at 2am...u seem to have not even finished 3/4 of them...

sianz...i guess i just have to keep working hard...so unlike how i used to be...but that is the reason why i've not been blogging..sorry guys if u have been checking regularly whether i wrote a new blog entry...i guess some of u even give up coming to my blog unless for "shouting" in the box...=X

life's pretty boring sometimes...especially when its all about school..thought living in sch is much better..its easy when u just wake up 5 mins b4 class and have all ur meals prepared...but eating almost the small routine of food each week...thats boring manz...yea..sometimes they do change...but how often manz?...so usually go out and feast on other stuff...like they say "if u dunno how bad food can be..u wont appreciate the good ones"..hehez...something abt the two extremes i've learnt in philsophy last semester...and english this semester...

but the good thing is i'm only a few storeys or even a few doors away from my school pals...so thats great...but when i came...it was kind of a bad timing i guess...the china guy i used to talk about...called guoyi..moved out to university the next day...it was so saddening...i was like "hey guoyi!...surprise...i've moved into residence"...then saw his room so messy...then he disclosed to me that he is moving out...sianz...=(...was so sad then..me and my hk pal was like "so suddenly?...were u even planning to tell us?"...but it was actually a last minute thing..he is one of the dang yuans in china...like those that have potential and are smart enough to be brought up into politicians or if very good...even governmental positions and high ranks all that stuff...

but one thing that he said in those four hours we talked in the night b4 he left in the morning made me very touched...he said something like "actually my stay in bronte has been quite a boring one...but ever since the semester started in january..it has took a great change"...i was like "because of me?"...he said "yeah...mostly because of that"...but acctually i didnt do much..i just liked annoying him alot and going in algebra class to bother him..once i just punched him and had him chasing me in the corridors of the school..lol...if u guys read that entry i mean...

i taught him drums...but not exactly was one of the potential to do so...asked him to learn at his comfortable tempo rate..but he insist on doing it fast like i do...which the stubborness got him no where..lol...i guess he just doesnt hear enough music..but heng i got a brief knowledge of chinese music..so could learn from some songs with him...but still..he cant play the hi-hat right..lol..

anyways,i miss him alot...gave him my contact numbers...i really wonder when i'll ever hear from him again...all the best guoyi...wherever u are...always remember u to be one that brought me out like a bigger brother...even though we only went out twice...but it was nice bullying u...even though u are like 2 years older..=X hahaz..

its really weird or just maybe weird for me...cos i usually stick around with younger teenagers...rarely my age pple unless for guys...so when i came here..had to adapt to the style that girls are either my age or older than me...some dun even look their age...so its real scary to know that a girl u've been treating like a meimei...is like 1 or 2 years older than u...sometimes even 3 manz...

my hk friend just left yesterday night...left on my floor in bronte are all the casual hi bye friends all over the world and the close singaporean guys i have...wonder what graduation will be for me..its gonna be so saddening...but last semester..it didnt seem that many cried or anything...it was more like everyone is excited to return to their countries...i dunno about myself..leaving singapore was without a tear...wonder abt graduation.....

ever since my bro left..i guess i've been very independent to live by myself wholly...doing my projects myself..and still getting good outcomes of them...this semester i only got all 70s for my mid term...human patterns(geog) was be cos of my leg...i missed many classes and did not hand up two assignments..which if i did..i would have gotten high 80s..cos all my tests i got high 80s...maths date is mainly cos of lack of practice constant careless mistakes in the test...just that the first mid term period is for u to like adapt to the style of how things are going...then later its on the fast lane to the finals...cant believe i still have time to blog...but i have to..i miss u guys!

and finally, english..u've heard about it..i'm doing gd..but can be better...i'm persevering..do keep me in ur prayers k?..i need them alot...;)

i've had like a dream a few days ago about my family...i think i really miss them...especially my mum...no biasness...but she's who makes my life so different and plays a huge role in my life...even though she can be naggy...but i really wish i could just say i love u to her...i said it to my dad thru email...see how going overseas help mature u?...or how it turns u so mushy to pple u never knew were so important in ur life...= marcus...especially...no one can take over that position he as in my life...constantly trying to dig out time to talk to him..but i wonder whether he still remembers me as an important factor to him..i guess many pple blame me for just leaving like they arent important...but no...i hope these two years plus i spend in singapore with army to finish will be meaningful to share with u guys..

finally,music night has come up again..its like tomorrow!!..lol...i've been practising for it..so tired...to juggle music making and studies at the same time...but improving my skills at drums alot i feel...and brings me closer to knowing how my dream will be like...playing drums4life..woohoo!...

the songs are:

American idiot - Green day
Letters to you - Finch
Slip out - some rock song from anime
Unwell - matchbox twenty
pieces - sum41
you're a god - vertical horizon
boulevard of broken dreams - green day
Basket case - green day

all punk i know...but very cool songs...mostly i'm the drummer...lol...but guess what..i'm singing for the first time in my life on stage manz...i dun hav the punk voice...so guess what i'm singing...i'm singing UNWELL manz...i know norman did it very well in my church...i wonder how i'll do it...especially i've never liked a microphone in front of my mouth when singing...but i've built up confidence to sing loudly into it now...even testing the mic usually,i'm already so shy of doing so manz...=X and having to play guitar at the same time...at least thats good..cos i dunno what to do with my hands if not...hehez

but i guess i'll be sweating after the performance...8 songs..gonna take about 30 plus minutes...we are the main item of the music night...also be cos i went all out to suggest that a musich night is wanted in this semester..or else i'll never get a chance to do so anymore...its my last semester!!...then one week..then zoom...back to spore...

hope it goes well...cos in my dream yesterday...only 10 people came to the performance...gonna pray for the attendance and make sure that the light is off before we perform..or its gonna suck so badly manz...its on june 2nd...supposedly on june 3rd...but heng lar..i dun want to be performing on that day manz...even though its my dream to do so..but still..hehez

okay....break is over...gonna get back to studying...was kind of feeling not well today..unwell i mean...lol...maybe be cos i practised with the band until 11pm yesterday then studied util 2am...it was just too much...was feelng bad in first class of the day..so i skipped the rest...

ok lar...take care everyone...do remember to constantly shout in my box....its real saddening if i dun hear from u all..its like the only way i can talk to u all...cos msn connection in sch sucks..and rarely go online...too much studies and stuff to do also...do hope things will soon get better...miss yea guys...God bless singapore..hehez..*type off*

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