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Monday, June 06, 2005
6/06/2005 10:20:00 PM

yoz everyone...back for another entry of Cliff's blog..yeah...so many things happen in the last few days..coming back to school felt so boring...wished the exciting days could just go on and on without having to face studies and everything that totally sucks...guess u guys having fun with the holidays ya?..but i'll have mine when i come back in july...but without much pple to pei wo...just the singaporeans that are going back...but they'll be leaving in a month or so...so its not very long...then they going to university already..sianz..while me?..the next chapter of my life is ARMY DAYZ...hmm...i wonder how it will be like...gotta keep on going with my fitness freak routine..or else i'll come back unfit for NS and then i'll suffer...=X

Music night went like a blast...it was quite saddening that we heard we are the only band performing..but so what manz...our band is great...with great talents...supposed to have a combination of instruments like yellowcard with a violinist..but my HK friend that played violin and got second last semester had cracks in his violin..so sad right?...haiz..but anyways, we still did very well without him..the music night even happening on a "rushthrough" semester like this is all because of my demands of one and my friends that helped me get it...the SAC(student activity council) members...thanks alot manz...

the events were like only ten this time around...and mostly boring..until our band came on(thats what many told me)...got to perform very well but was a little too much...eight songs...and all punk fast songs and stuff...it got me very tiring...and when they were like "FOUR MORE SONGS TO GO"...i was like "what the heck...i'm dying already...i thought two more only?"....my nerves made me tensed again..i used to have problems performing the drums...but now i'm so used to it..being on stage with the drums feels so comfortable..but because of having to sing and play guitar...first time singing on stage for a performance somemore..so i was very tensed..broke sweat quite alot...but it was good..first time and i really wanted it well done...sang loud and clear...hit all the notes...i'm satisfied...anyways,its for performance and having fun at the same time...so no great pressure manz..just me,i take all my performances very seriously,cos they are all counted as my experiences of drumming b4 my dreams come true...

there was this guy that did a drum solo..i kind of hate long drum solos...cos it gets kind of boring unless u really plan it...i did...but i did not eventually do it...cos i rather just do an intro soundtrack with my band..thats cooler...anyways,about this guy...he has learnt like for 6 years..has a private teacher...and is quite impressive...but thats because he undergoed professional training..i'm glad i didnt...cos it wouldnt make me feel thaat good..i only admire self taught musicians...thats true determination and alot of individualism and personality is put into ur music making...thats cool...

i learnt only like four years...and not much from anyone in particular...i even gave up on this professional teacher here...i found out that i'm wasting my time learning from that guy..teaching me the same old stuff always...his teaching only is cool for two mths..after that..it gets boring...and nothing impresses me as much anymore...and the great thing is i still impressed him alot and impressed this guy that has learnt professional training for like 5-6 years...i was so flattered...he asked me to do a drum solo instead..but i insisted not...i was not prepared for it..i did prepare one but nayz...i was not going to do it...it will tire me out even b4 the whole performance started....

anyways,the music night went really really good...i loved it...especially with electric guitar players that are so good...one from peru..one from HK..and one from singapore!...and guess what..the singapore one is the best...the peru and HK ones sum up to only half of him...but also because he has played the guitar for like 8-9 years...had professional training at the beginning...he is like already 21 years old...hehez...but i did learn how to play american idiot from him..hehez..

life's been going quite well for the past weekend...it was my bday on last friday...guess many of u guys forgot about it...but i dun blame u all...singapore life so busy and hectic...remember a june 3rd date is not easy..but thanks for those who actually remembered ;)

i went to canada's wonderland on my bday...went with her...it was great...especially when we went with a big group...so the tickets cost 25 dollars instead of 50 dollars...so it was much better...then me and her went on our own...played about 11 big rollercoaster rides....got over my fear of playing them and took them like "whats that manz"....so it was kind of fun...got very daring with them already...but the great thing is that these rollercoasters are very tall...it's canada's wonderland..it was cool..but everything inside is so expensive..

sat about 8 other types of rides..all very fun...didnt sit the 230 feet tall vertical drop and bungee thingy..cos the bungee cost too much and the vertical drop was like so scary..and i have a phobia of heights..so it wouldnt be very good...especially when i hate stuff that gives the "out of control" feeling..

overall,it was super fun...we stayed there like for 12 hours...it was so fun..went for the spongebob movie..and first time in my life i really sat down and watched spongebob movie...actually its quite lame and funny..i didnt know that..all along thought it was super stupid..the show kinda had some motion..it was the kind that the chair moves to the excite of the movie...so it was quite good..hehez...first time in my life sat a merry-go-round..lol...so stupid..me and her just sat it like little kids...actually wanted to stay in the thing and go one more time..but thought its very stupid and like snatching places of children to play..lol...=X

i've decided to not go to the church i'm attending anymore...come to a conclusion of not wanting to force myself to go to a church that i dun feel good in..but that doesnt mean i'm giving up my christian lifestyle of living..no way manz!...went for hillsongs united concert a few weeks back..it was so cool...so nice..but very sweaty...they are so good...

the church i was attending just didnt let me feel like i'm actually going there to grow with the youths..but more like a responsibility of serving as a drummer and teaching pple drums..so i decided not to continue...i shouldnt just go to a church just because of feeling that the church needs me...but my spiritual growth is very important too...so i changed to going to her church...even though its catholic but there are many christian type of catholics..just like herself...not the extremist type..so i dun see much difference...especially when lutheran came out of catholic..learnt alot about the differences...but this type of thing is really based on one's faith and one's belief...cant be categorised and stereotyped..like how city harvest pple go there for the music..but there are sure alot of very good christians there too...or else how the heck did the population growth of it become so big?...

anyways, going back to singapore soon..i'm so glad..i miss my cousin,my church,my family...everything of singapore..but of course as i'm here...will enjoy everything of here first...especially when its gonna be another two years b4 i come back...

my bday was good..mainly be cos of her presence in my life...haiz..duno how i'll go on with life without her...has become such a big part of me...there isnt me without her i guess....but i guess God will make a way..thats the only hope that i can cling on wih strong faith...

okay..i'll end off here...everyone take care in singapore..dun get too sick by the weather there...no heat strokes ya?...hehez...God bless...cya..

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