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Sunday, June 18, 2006
6/18/2006 12:02:00 AM

hey everyone...actually i stopped blogging for awhile was due to thinking that no one was reading my blog...so like..whats the point?...but i guess there are pple telling me they do...and some pple even saying why i stopped...but mainly,also because my sschedule too tight for it also lar..hehez...*excuses*

anyways,about my butt injury...update abt it...been thru an MRI...that cost my mum like 500 dollars....quite ex...as because it was done at a private specialist doctor...so no subsidy by government or anything...so quite ex...especially when i'm trying to save money for my parents by using my NS pay as my allowance...

the MRI scan did nothing for me....cos it only sights bone injuries or major ones...but thank God...for nothing seen..or else might affect me when i grow older...so the doctor just suspects its a major muscle injury loh...so downgrades me for 6 mths...b4 seeing the situation whether i'm fit back for being combat active in army...

life's easy now...going back to camp is like a holiday camp for me...just go there...sit in office..but quite shagged in a sense that u sit in the office for 16 hours...then u sleep 8 hours later...nothing better to do than reading newsppaper and helping out with my higher rank seniors with the job they need to have done...which mostly consist of just photocopying documents for them...so how hard is that?...and plus..i get to listen to radio the whole day....something i've never been able to do...liking the outdoors...means no time to just sit down and listen to radio and seeing whats new and updated about the music industry...

but brought books with me tooo....reading Da vinci code now....finished like 3/4 of it in like 2 days...quite slow lar...but a literature student is like that lar...indepth studying also lar...didnt like the thought of having to read it...but like my bro says...u can do without reading the book as a christian..but when pple question..u have to know how to answer as a christian....and reading the book..shows how much about christian history and facts i dunno...which the fictional facts in the book is trying to brainwash me...so i finish reading the book and then read a book on the christian views of da vinci code...that will secure my faith and get rid of my confusion....

downgrading is gonna be worrying for me...but if u think i'm not physically able to be active anymore...its wrong..i just cant take heavy loads....cos of my back injury....muscle pull i guess...and being posted to a combat engineer training institute to be a sergeant is not gd news....everything is about heavy loads...so thats why i have to be out of course....

worrying about downgrade is because i'm gonna sit in an office whole day..and still eat the same amount of food like usual..thats gonna make me fat...like my bro!...i dun want to be like him...and i cant be seen exercising too...because i'm suppose to be seemingly injured quite badly..no exercise...sianz loh..but i still do pushups and stuff...no situps only...i cant live without exercising..i'm conscious abt my fitness level...and its quite sad i cant get my Gold status anymore....cos can get 200 dollars if i get Gold each year in army...but now cant le...sianz...

i really wish this injury will be gotten over soon...feel my amps becoming abit flabby le...thats not a gd sign..my greatest fear is having a tummy...like my bro and dad!!...started since sec one doing situps everyday..i dun understand how much a waste can it be if i stop suddenly now...health-conscious and fitness-conscious....

by the way,my whole family is back in singapore..but temporarily only...they are leaving soon again...quite sad...plus i come back 2 days a week only...so they stay one mth like i only see them 8 days...minus-ing the times i'm out and they are out...now they are at church retreat...so one week of seeing them is gone...gotta be independent i guess...just like my dad said...he left his family in malaysia to study overseas at the age of 16...i guess leaving at 16 and a half was a better case for me....anyways,soon i'll be in Canada after NS next year...one year with my bro b4 he graduates then leaves me alone there...then life will be in my own hands....

anyways,i think i'll blog again soon....cya guys....

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