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Sunday, July 09, 2006
7/09/2006 01:39:00 AM

hey everyone...at last back for another entry...since there are ppl like "cheering me on" to blog more...hehez...its not that i dun wan to...sometimes on weekends just dun hav the time...while the last few weeks was changing my scv broadband to singnet broadband...quite sianz...no guy in the house to do it...only me...my sis will just come to a conclusion that the singnet pple should come to do it for us...stupid...i ended up trying to figure it out myself...sometimes in life....u just cant count on others....but mainly on urself n ur faith in whatever u believe..in my terms...God above..hehez

okay..an update on my life....gonna get transferred from combat engineer out-of-course personnel to ministry of defence(MINDEF)'s photo lab assistant...whatever that is...but as long as it means i can come out everyday...it means everything...no matter what shit i get...and for those that dunno a thing about army terms and stuff...just get the main idea...from already quite gd life...to very gd life...but its hard to say what kind of superiors i might get...

love life-wise....guess its quite stupid how i treat love i guess...almost everytime in love...when everything is fine...i flung away my lover for personal freedom...i think i really have a problem with committing...or maybe i've just not found the one that can make me wanna do so...while i think this is the wrong time to be involved in such stuff...i wanna do so only in university....not in a pathetic army lifestyle...

sometimes i come to points in life always thinking why pple can pursue their dreams..while i have to take a pause in mine for NS...how i wish i was in the music department for NS...at least i can do something i like and not lose out in my music area while serving NS...but i guess theoretically i didnt qualify...self-taught i guess makes this difference...

but recently been organising a course for pple who wanna learn drums in my church...today taught a grp of guys that were interested in learning...just like in Canada..i dun charge but teach patiently and with interest in them becoming potential drummers of the future...maybe spotting the one that has great passion and great potential in doing so first ba...

last week's attendance was one guy only...it was gd as i could concentrate and go fast in progress with him...with no prob...cos i always taught one by one...today's attendance was four...and i have a feeling there's more to come...girls already asking to learn...quite reluctant to teach girls...cos its quite unladylike for girls to play drums...the posture...legs wide open...dun really like the look either...

today had to do a way of teaching i always hated...having to teach many at once....even when i was on course for those pathetic two mths at yamaha...i found grp classes quite pathetic...everyone having to wait for everyone...and progress at rates that are slowed down when one cant get the beat...today i tried it that way...but i guess next week onwards...i'll choose to do it at their own pace...its gonna be confusing....but i have to remember my cycle of teaching beats...and who is where on the cycle...cos some are faster while some are slower...dun wan to slow down the faster ones while make the slower ones feel guilty for holding back the others learn....

its hard cos there's no multiple drumsets for them to have all hands-on at once..but maybe its gd cos i also can concentrate on one's flaws at one time...or else it will be havoc everyone of them playing at the same time...so i'm using the imagination way...hitting air...while ur leg just taps the floor...

i'm glad they are patient in learning...many give up at the first try of the first beat...cos we are all born with hands and legs connected in doing things together...not separately...the gd thing abt a drummer is all four limbs are able to conduct a different rhythm at the same time to create a beat...i think its what drummers are admired for and the feel of music without no definite chords or rules to abide with...everything's at ur own creativity...

have also been thinking about what course i wanna do in university...

its like my plan for pursuing music is taking it on the side while getting a degree in university...then try forming a band during university in Canada...while get a job with my degree..and still do my passion of music on the side...and once it gets a spark on the music industry...quit my job top focus on it...

but i never thought once that the degree i get might be a job i'll have to do for a few years b4 succeeding in music....and something i must like....i was thinking psychology...but psych contains science...which i absolutely hate...then was thinking i love lit...so why not? but what i can do with a lit degree?...either teach or write....which is quite crazy to be doing it for a job....i'm really quite confused at the moment...u might say i'm not going university that soon yet...so relax and slowly think...but i'm one that always worries alot about the future...hoping everything is planned first...then can relax after that...

somehow i think life's gonna be complicated after NS...and back to the studying lifestyle then to the working society i speed off to....if i dun plan my steps..i might regret just going with the flow of life..not steering my wheel of life properly is the last thing i wanna regret in the future..

i just hope to get back on track and not lose direction in life...but always remembering there's someone bigger than anyone on earth that has everything already planned out for me..is a big assurance that my life is in gd hands and everything's gonna be alright...as long as i walk close with Him,i'll not go wrong....

and in case u guys think i sound gay or even think seriously i'm gay...that guy is the big guy above in heaven looking over everything thats going in the this world...can control everything but decides to give us the freedom of choice...which will then end in a everlasting effect of us in the life after death...

i'll stop here for now...mind quite blank because of the occupied day..sorry if i bored u guys...thanks for reading...God bless...

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