?Â¿? DaR3 To DrEaM Â¿?Â¿

Monday, July 17, 2006
7/17/2006 01:51:00 PM

hey everyone...once again i'm back...sometimes i wonder how many pple are reading this and whether this is meant for u all...not in the sense that u cant be reading my blog...its open for all...meant for u all meaning not sure how u guys will respond to what i am saying cos i've never considered the audience...but really just shoot what i wanna say in this personal blog of mine...

b4 i start this entry...commenting about the last "shoutbox" entry by sam...that is so true...i've been having a cold and a bad cough ever since i started out in the office...its been outgoing for more than a month now manz...the cold because of the aircon...the cough is because i have more chances of going to the canteen to eat outside food and now in MINDEF...everyday...and more time to bookout and feast on unhealthy food..lol...maybe also because in aircon rooms...the germs of pple being sick...i see alot of my fellow "colleagues" having the flu too...its circulating...so its an endless chain of pple getting sick...

really...when u Chiong(army style)...really..u dun see ppl taking MCs that often...in fact...i see office pple having the higher consistency of getting sick...especially the stress level in here too...its just difference...pimple breakout has happened with me also ever since i started office...i miss the sun..really..but temp levels are rising...and even walking in the sun makes u sweat like u r sprinting in it...

anyways,i'm out now at this early time from the office and back home because i have a medical appointment later...at the polyclinic i visited when i was sick last week...actually i've been sick for a long period of time manz...just about when i cant take it...then i'll report sick...

the medical appointment is to check and analysis of my lungs in case the coughing i've done in the last one mth caused any damage or anything...the doc was quite shocked when i said i was coughing for one mth..its more like sore throat lar...not consistent coughing..or else really...i would have died of overexcessive coughing...or because i cut my throat away myself because of the irritation..one mth due to me not taking care...yeah...and everyone say "u asked for it"...and my reply of "whatever" =X

i'm starting to love christian bands like hillsongs and delirious alot again..the music display done by them...its just a different feel...maybe because u can see the humble display of each instrument that reveals some desire in them to do their best...but thats in every band..the difference is its for a difference cause...its for a higher calling...the whole display of music and organisation of it...is all for one audience..for God...and for the congregation in where the concert or worship is held at is for pple...not to listen to and appreciate or shout thei hearts out just because they like the singers or whatever idolisation they hav for the band...but for the reason of leading the congregation to sing together as one....yeah..shouts their hearts out too...but for one they adore deeply in their hearts...for the Almighty God above...

in case many do not understand what this is...this is called a worship session...

its just different..the way of singing...so i believe pple that really are strong christians and wanna pursue their singing in a way they can do it for higher purpose...and for a more everlasting gift....they will choose to do it for God...

the way of singing..u dun put ur heart in it just to impress the crowd with ur lovely voice..the focus is not on u...but its shifted off u...to show how much love and effort u r putting in to wanna impress some other audience...an audience worth a billion or just uncountable times more than the audience "present" there...

for which other audience would one prefer to sing for?...and in the process of doing so...inner emotions like confession,reflections,happiness,etc can happen at the same time...and physical actions like lifting urself up totally,jumping,kneeling,crying,etc can happen too?...who else deserves such an applause of praise and devotion?...

some may tell me "An American Idol singing for the finals to eventually win it" should do that...and the audience is worth it...i tell u...no....

anyways,enough of "preaching" or whatever...to know more about a "worship session"...attend a church and truly understand what christianity is about...u will understand why we are doing this...it may be scary at first to see such a sight...especialliy when u do not know a damn thing about what worship is about...but when u do...u will tell me..."thats not enough" or "Thats the least we can do"...

sorry to those non-christians out there..but there are times i just wish to shout out all my feelings as a christian of how i feel religiously and stuff...and this is the only place i can do it i guess...

i was elaborating all about that because i've changed and confirmed my path of faith as doing "Drums4life"...i will play secular songs...but to higher priority...i want a band that consist of christians...to serve a higher purpose in pursuing their dreams...serving-God4life with music and worship...to even think of succeeding secularly is hard...as a christian band..i think i would be really lucky even if i get recognised..but the gd thing is that its not only pursuing my interest...but also the love of my life...God above...

sometimes i think i know why i'm not suitable for being attached to a girl or even attached to anything thats gonna permanently pin me down from making big decisions...the dreams and decisions i'm gonna make in life..need a lot of flexibility...and i may not settle down easily...

i dun believe in horoscopes...to me,its just generalisation...and how can a mere person...no matter what u call them that take astrology or star signs and stuff as a profession...predict ur future or how u r...they are of equal status...but one thing they said was coincidentally correct...in love or with anything i do...if things dun change as fast as i do or cant catch up with how i do things or even suddenly just stay stagnant and not being creative or interesting anymore...i'll move on..and steer a different direction..leaving it behind...

okay..i'll end off here..off to my appointment i go..u guys take care...and always remember...christians and non-christians alike...never see life as just living to ur fullest b4 u die and everything is gone..but seek higher purpose and never take things one day by one day..look far...and if u feel u r lost...find ur way,get back on trach...feel curious about anything..find out...u were not created just to live and die...u were created for something more...find that out..no matter how...unless u r just satisfied that ur life was just to be a part of this world...that one day will fade too...definitely, i'm not..."the world and its possessions will fade away...but ur soul wont...living aimlessly without a solid faith and belief is like a boat travelling on a square earth...just waiting to reach the side..to only find a large plunge to nothingness awaiting it"....

yellowcard