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Monday, December 25, 2006
12/25/2006 11:53:00 PM

hey guys,

back for another entry manz...know its been hectic in my life recently...but at last got to make some time to freaking blog...and to ensure those that always come to visit will still have something to read once in awhile..here i am..hehez =X

its like been quite awhile since i've even stop to think abt my life...to think of whether its going in the right direction and whether i'm satisfied abt it or should i change my steer to a different direction...

recently,musically...its quite flourishing...even though me and norman disbanded..its like true passion of music will not fail even if upsets come or problems arises with other musicians..personally,ur heart will still go on...

yeah..to me,its like priorities is like God,Music then girls...so its great now...cos now i wan to combine this love of music with the love of God...been doing it alot in recent years in fact...in church,teaching drums to little kids or even those that r humble enough to say "i'm not gd..but do u think i can learn"...its not abt being gd or u think u're gd...its abt whether u have the heart to learn...or else me myself,wouldnt have reached this stage at all...

its a great experience teaching pple..i learn alot myself about how to encourage pple and how to show love to those that have completely no confidence in themselves while some being overconfident...it reflects their personality and character so much..its like thru teaching...i understand them at the same time and at the same time,i'm doing a gd deed and enjoying myself imparting whatever little skills i have to them...

and to the other extreme...there's always those paranoid ones that go like a few beats then say "i cant do this lar!..."...or get very very confused and irritated by the beat when all u need to do is feel it,do it and keep trying...dun think so much...somethings in life when u think too much and just keep being paraonoid abt whether to do it or not,the thing could have been already achieved halfway or even all the way by then...

been coming up with a band in church...like teaching the drummer while jamming with them...teaching the guitarist and learning vocals myself...okay..i know for those that know how i sing,i'm not gd...its just a normal voice and sometimes pple still think it sucks..but yeah..i'm trying and i'm willing to accept it if pple say its awful...but definitely its not tone deaf...(for the many that know who i am talking abt...she herself is drastically tone deaf herself..-_-")...imagining someone telling u u r tone deaf when they themselves are tone deaf...and u just dun wan to hurt them by saying it cos u know how it feels urself...she should just record her voice..=X

okay..abt vocals..its fun..but now i know how hard it is..and thru alot of training,ur voice actually does improve...so its not so much abt whether u have it..its just how long u need to train it..like musical instruments..if ur talented,u r gd straight away...if ur not,u just work hard and u can achieve it...but the most important thing is to dare to take the step of daring to sing or daring to learn it first...thats the obstacle everyone needs to pass if u really want to do something..have confidence in urself and JuSt Do IT!

and think abt it..even if ur talented..it caused an ego in urself..its hard to be humble and say u rather a simple life when u r bloody rich...same goes to have a talent...but whats more?...its the humble that try hard...and its the pple that try hard and work for it that gain success...success is earning it even though it seemed so farfetched in the beginning...not when it was just a hands-reach away for u to acquire...

okay..so back to the band...being in a band aint only abt being talented..u can be all talented..but working together and learning from one another along the way...thats a very hard process to go thru...relationships and having to humble urself to learn from others...its a very gd experience for pple who r too full of themselves to even listen to what other pple say..

i've learnt thru forming a band that it aint only abt urself and the balance of volume in a band really makes u watch out for others and to play along with each other instead of against each other...its really hard...especially for those that want the spotlight...but in this case..they must think whether it sounds nice "as a whole" instead of whether personally "its nice"....

and where the love of God and Music comes together is cos this is a christian band...we go play secular songs..but just for influences...once we r better...straight dive into christian songs...more like for church than for anything else..and for the relationships and bonding rather than for music and stuff...

since the common interest in music..there's where we'll combine as one to do something for God..

yeah...its like Christmas..okay like 12 mins past already..but yesh...ever thought how the word Christmas came about? ....CHRISTmas...CHRISTIANITY....thats like quite obvious le...okay..for those that dun get it...its alright...we forgive u...like my saying goes...there aint no pple with no brains...its just that there r stupid pple with brains that dunno how to use them..=X

and it aint abt shopping and it aint abt christmas carols or gifts or anything...its abt the birth of Jesus Christ upon this earth...2006 years ago...ever thought why its still celebrated to this day...and ever thought why our time is set according to B.C. Before Christ and A.D...which to me is "After his Death"...but its true...time only started counting when He died...and why not when u died or i died?

if He didnt exist,why do pple celebrate His bday to this date and why does no persecuations against christianity ever succeed and the Bible is the like the most evident book in history ever written...and its like the best selling book up to this date..maybe not at particular periods..but all the while..it hasnt stopped publishing...

And if He did die for us for our sins...why would someone even do that?...i mean u say stuff that r gonna make u put on the cross and die a horrible death...and stuff that even to this date...pple r still pondering abt the true meaning of it in the Bible...there's only three possibilities in this case...yeah ur gonna tell me "there're lunatics that do so too"...but the things He said...were more sane than any of us living today...and nothing He said is contradictory to any part of what He said before or after...

three possibilities being He is a lunatic,Liar or really...He is God...a lunatic doesnt perform miracles none of us can now do...and being a liar...who would continue to lie when faced with a CRUCIFIXION(read up abt it..it aint funny..its not like commiting suicide...its like something no one would want) charge....while the last possibility is really up to u all to believe...i wont say much anymore..

hope u all had a MERRY MERRY Christmas...=)

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