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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
4/10/2007 12:19:00 AM

yoz everyone. its been awhile. just had an inspiration to type and to satisfy the need of pple who actually tune in to this blog and always check back for new entries. thanks again. =)

had two "philosophies" i made up in my mind.

=> Losers arent those that dare to try but end up failing or being laughed at horribly when they do bad, losers are people who do not dare to try and without trying...already can imagine the scene of failing and pple laughing at them.

=> Realists are pple that give up dreams without trying and because of low self-confidence or the chances of success being thin, do not try at all.

REally think this way about pple. especially pple that actually have dreams that are similar to mine and always admired them for having the guts to dream abt it and try to achieve it. Cos they are equally like myself. some of these pple have more talent than i do. okay. let me rephrase that, most of these pple have more talent than i do. more exposure and stuff. i'm just a struggling dreamer. and it really discourages u when pple give up cos they think they're not gd enough.

Imagine all the musicians out there. Imagine how many beforehand, already gave up when a few years down the road, they could have made it. While its because of the few that didnt give up, do we actually have musicians out there shining like stars. not only musicians. in fact, artists in general.

i really despise people who have dreams, but put down their dreams because of the impossibilities there are to it. nothing is impossible. thats the mindset of a dreamer. keep trying and u will get it. thats a mindset of a dreamer. a mindset of a realist? reading what i'm saying, and saying its all nonsense and i should wake up from this dream i have and be real. get a job that earns bucks, that is marketable. i wont say that is wrong, if ur life is all about earning big bucks and getting the stuff u want. materialism i would call it. enough is enough. not more than enough.

while the loser mentality, its really pathetic. u haven even seen failure and u think abt it all the time. it terrifies u and creates fear in urself, to avoid such situations. but the possibilities of really failing, depends on urself. if u believe its gonna happen, it will happen. if not, even when it happens, u wont feel sad, i mean u will feel abit, but better than regretting not doing it and not knowing what will happen, but only imagining it.

life is really about trying and trying, there's no harm trying, thats what pple say. but how many actually listen to this phrase. "there's no harm trying". more like "avoid the "harm" by not doing it".

i will keep this entry short and sweet.

another thinking i had in my head, mostly when i travel back home do i think of such stuff on the MRT or on the walk home. okay. ya. ur right. its abt girls. but ya, i'm straight ya? =P

sometimes i wonder whether confidence ought to come from urself as a person or is it build up thru the years. like clay aiken's redition of "build me up, buttercup, just to let me down..."..someone can actually build u up. but another can actually build u down. how do u really define confidence and self esteem and ego.

i would say confidence really is from within. it can grow thru the years. but it has to start by loving urself first. if not, how do u love others. i remember counselling this girl b4 about how do u start loving others, if u cant love urself first.

its really like the phrase from the bible. "love others as yourself". i mean if u dun love urself, u r gonna have a hard time loving others manz. okay. so maybe i dun do what i preach. but i'm trying, its hard loving urself when u always try to put others first. but ya, there's always this slight self-centeredness and doing things to ease ur own load or something. so dun tell me u dont love urself.

but really, loving urself isnt abt being selfishness or self-centeredness. its about being comfortable in ur own skin. ur clothes can all match and even enhance ur looks, but one look, ur poise can give u off. and thats what turns me off the most, girls with no poise. displays low confidence in urself. and such girls, mostly are dependent on their bfs for their self-value and worth.

while ego, is the one that u build up urself. pple hate it, cos its too much for urself. thats like pride.

while self-esteem, is the one that pple causes into u to believe.

so the arrangement of ur "priorities" of these three factors in ur life should go: confidence,self-esteem,ego. confidence playing the foundation of ur self worth, self-esteem actually showing u how pple look at u and sometimes it might be true that ur confidence is too high when pple regard u lowly(but not always,judge for urself),ego being the one that boosts u up at the end of the day so that pple's putting of u down, does not kill u in the process.

i guess many pple misunderstand the meaning of it. and back to girls, i guess its not worth discussing whether they like a confident or a humble man. i think a balance of both. egos and pride arent a bad thing. but excess of it is.

end my "short and sweet" entry here. pen off. take care everyone. keep in touch. =)

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